We fell in and out of time for so many different reasons that I can’t really pinpoint when it all began to click; we weren’t meant for each other. Maybe it was the time that you made me your second choice, or the time you told me you settled because I would always be there, or the numerous times you made me your in-between fling.

Without you I wouldn’t know what it’s like to give my all to someone who doesn’t deserve it. I never got around to thanking you for the trials you put me through. From the sleepless nights thinking that I did something wrong for you to ignore me, for the days spent re-reading our texts just hoping I’d see the text bubbles appear hoping that you were thinking of me too.

Thank you for the moments of disappointment and disbelief because without you I’d still be thinking I was less than. Truth is, until you I didn’t know what it meant to love someone without limits; then I met him.

"I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke" — Meredith grey

From our first conversation he just understood me; my quirks, my witty and sarcastic jokes, even my SpongeBob references. From our first conversation, I knew from that point on that my heart was safe. He challenged me to be a better person, loved me, and helped me grow into the woman I’ve dreamt of becoming. Even my flaws were to be loved too.

It’s the little things that make me fall for him without limits, without second thoughts. Maybe it’s the way he calls me baby or darlin', maybe it’s the way he pushes me to strive for greatness, regardless; every day is something new. Loving him is instinctual, effortless, and easy.

Our demise showed me just that I am more than the 3 a.m. “You up?” text, that without trying to be, I am someone’s everything. It took me to places that I thought I’d never come back from. Thank you for trying to break me… without you I wouldn’t be someone’s “kind of crazy.”