Relationships will end - this is just a fact of life. Over and over again we will have our hearts broken by friends, family, and significant others, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't get back up. On the contrary, with every heartbreak and disappointing relationship, we should learn and see how far we have come as a person.
For me, ending my last relationship was the best thing that could have possibly happened to me. I know, that sounds cruel and callous, but it's true. Looking back now I was lacking in faith, trying to find affirmation in all the wrong places, and willing to give someone more of myself than they were willing to give back. However, I don't look back on this time as one where I regret everything and wish that the relationship had never happened. It's actually quite the opposite.
I look back on my toxic relationship and realize that through it, I have learned so much about myself and have grown as a person.
So thank you. Thank you for being the worst person for me, because through you I learned about myself.
I learned what it meant to be independent. I learned how to take care of myself and to not rely on anyone for anything. You were a pro at letting me down and honestly, it helped me come out on top in the long run.
You taught me that trusting everyone is a big mistake. Through all the lies and deceit, I was able to figure out that being a trusting individual is dangerous. That mistake had me burned and ended in more tearful nights than I would care to ever have again in my entire life, but at the same time I have learned to hold back with my trust until it's been proven that the people in my life are worth it.
Thank you for repeatedly making me second, third, or even last in your life, because when I finally was valued by someone, I recognized that there was something different. That someone putting me first in their life shouldn't be an oddity but something completely normal. I should expect the best from the person that is supposed to love me, not think that being subpar is normal.
Thanks for pushing my boundaries to show me that I shouldn't bend for anyone. I bent to you more times than I would ever again, and looking back I'm glad because it taught be how to be very good at saying no. You taught me self control and how to protect myself. You reminded me what I stood for fiercely. I will no longer allow myself to compromise for someone who truly doesn't care that my "no" is final.
Thank you for being one of my worst experiences, because through you I learned that I am strong, I am beautiful, and nothing anyone can say or do will convince me differently. Thank you for everything you have taught me about myself because without you I wouldn't be nearly as strong as I am now. So thank you, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, for being the worst. I'll never forget you.




















