Nobody knows what it's like to have a body in the city & a body bending over its self to get there

All In the same mind
A body with a heart served on a silver platter I'll feed it to you slowly
Letter by letter
Read closely
Nobody knows what it's like to be hunched and not pretty
When the world says other wise
Because you can't see it through their eyes
I've got a bone to pick with you, World but I still have skeletons in my closet lining up with the souls in my bedroom
Just waiting for answers
But I told you about that question mark shaped back of mine
See I'm trying not to give you an inferior complex
Trying to make it simple, but I've got highways in my train of thought
They're all leading to you
But not actually you
Just the you I want for today
Just the you I want for today
Just the you I want for today
Can't you see I'm stuck on repeat
I can't change
This all stays the same
There's only so many traffic signals
My body is tired of red
Seen green two many times
& I'm counting the second down from yellow
I already know What's coming next
Stop next stop next stop next
Those words make me feel like the same but no one else would understand that
No one else will run the course of my mind
See the showers of my brain storms
Or count the spare change of my sense
No one has the time
My watch is running slow
I see it all by the hands playing tag with numbers
They twirl like kids at a playground
This doesn't hurt like a scraped knee
This hurts like the first time you touched me
Bitter sweet
But now you ate all of the candy up and left your sweet tooth in an ache in my stomach
I think of Texas what I think of a pain in my gut
It's big
I know you love someone else
I know you're not for monogamy and you believe in a billion different gods
But could you just listen to my prayers
I'll salvage your temple as if you were my savior
Because your skin is sweet and you taught me how to smile
I would never rely on you for happiness only lie to you for your sanity