To All The Ones I've Loved Before, Part VII
A part of me will always be in love with you, but as my best friend.
Dear K,
We met about 3 years ago when I joined a new organization and didn't know anyone. Since I'm really talkative and most of the other members were not, I was thrilled when you introduced yourself to me.
Finally, I had someone to talk to in there!
We didn't become very close that year, but I remember you as being one of my favorite people I met that year. When we first met, there was no awkwardness at all.
We just went straight into deep intellectual conversations upon meeting each other, and I loved it!
After not seeing you for a year when I took time off of school, I was so ready to reunite with you and hear all of your success stories.
I remember exactly how I fell for you-the exact way I've fallen for every person I've ever loved.
Whenever I develop real feelings for someone, it always starts off as a friendship. Then they do one cute thing and I become madly in love with them. There is no in-between.
I fell in love with you after you got back from your math conference. I wanted to know all about it even though math makes about as much sense to me as chemistry to a toddler, but I was also interested in your experience.
As you began to explain it to me, I saw how you were filled with passion! You loved what you were doing, and that made you memorable.
As you began to explain your research, you made it...make sense. If you can make math make sense to me, you are golden.
After you explained everything to me, I noticed right away that I couldn't take my eyes off of you. You were practically glowing!
Since we only saw each other once a week, I knew waiting a week to see you would be the longest week of my life. It was like the January of weeks!
When I got to see you that week, I was more nervous than I'd been in a long time. I had flowers in my hand and butterflies that had made their way from my stomach to my bloodstream.
I probably made myself completely obvious, as I've been told that subtlety isn't my specialty.
I remember that the best day of my life. I knew we wouldn't end up together, but I was more than happy to have you in my life as one of my best friends.
You changed my life. You helped me discover what it means to be truly happy, and despite a few external circumstances, I've been going strong ever since!
I've loved having you in my life over the last 3 years, and no matter where life takes us, I will always love you (as a friend of course).
Good luck out there,
-Sarah
