These past three or so months of my summer break flew right by and as fast as they could, let me tell you right now.
And although the summer sped by, I found I had a lot of time to concentrate on my thoughts, which seemed to be racing just as fast. Thoughts that, for the first time in awhile, had more to do with me than they did about the other people in my life and if that's not one of the most refreshing things in life, I don't know what is.
1. Letting go of friendships that always leave you wondering.
I don't mean friendships that require conscience time and effort to maintain because that's a normal thing that happens between two people involved in a healthy, grown up relationship. What I mean is the friendships that are solely one sided. A one sided friendship is essentially made up of a friend putting in all the work to maintain her friendship while the other friend is using all this effort being made as a crutch to lean on whenever necessary for her. Once you realize that you're the friend who's always waiting around, cut the cord because that's not friendship, it's convenience.
2. Realizing your worth at your lowest of times.
As you all know, this past summer's been a difficult one for me so it was difficult for me to realize what I'm actually capable of and what my true worth is. It's easy to gain a rather foggy mindset on oneself when you're already feeling your lowest but there is only one of two ways that scenario can go: use how you're feeling to pick yourself back up and change something or realize just how low you're feeling and stay in place.
3. Forgiveness is more about yourself than the person you're trying to forgive.
At least for me, the way I feel after letting go of any anger and resentment I have (or had) towards a person is a feeling I hope to continually feel as I grow older. Of course, I hope to have fewer and fewer feelings of resentment towards a person as I grow older but what I mean is I hope to carry a light heart as opposed to a heavy one because it's just extra pounds of stress nobody needs to succumb to.
4. The way you feel right now is going to change.
And it will continue to change. I believe one's emotions are similar to the turns of a roller coaster. You won't stay as stuck as you feel right now and just as oppositely, you will have hurdles to overcome that will shift your current state of happiness but as everything else, it will all come in full circle and you'll be exactly where you need to be after it all.
5. You are forever growing.
It might seem hard to believe (because it's even hard to believe for myself right now), but this low point of your life is you evolving. It's you growing. Growing into the person you are meant to be.
I hope that this past summer is nothing like the future summers I'll have. Not because I was stuck in a feeling that I thought I would never leave from, but because I hope to have moved past from this state of a rut and onto the big dreams I only hoped for this past summer.








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