The Summer I Grew Up

The Summer I Grew Up

Living with your eyes open.

You don't realize how fast life is going until you really look into how much time has passed between each memory. I think about when I was sitting in the car as my mom drove me around because I didn't have a license. It feels like that was simultaneously yesterday and a lifetime ago.

There was a time when you worried about getting up early enough so you don’t miss the school bus and about what you’re going to wear for Halloween. Problems were so simple and you had time to worry about them. Now it seems we move so fast that you have to have all of the solutions in place before the problem occurs. “I have to have a minor in case my major isn’t good enough.”

The summer between freshman year of college and sophomore year is where I’ve done the most growing up. Obviously once you leave home and you have to fend for yourself (for the most part), you start to grow as an individual. However I’m not talking about individuality or relying on yourself, but growing up in the context of perception. I now see that time is precious and every minute has to be taken advantage of - and in this I have found a way to make an experience out of everything.

Sunsets used to just happen every single day; that is all that they meant to me. It signified the end of my day as I worried about how my mascara was running out. I remember looking out of the window on a car ride and noticing the sky looked pretty, but then I had to choose the next song to come on. I went to school in Manhattan freshman year and this is when I realized how much they mean to me. I couldn’t see the sunset from my apartment and there was nowhere nearby to fully enjoy the sunset in its entirety because buildings were always in the way. Like they say “you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone.” Now I go outside every day and I sit behind my shed and watch the sunset. I have come to realize that every sunset is a new experience; some more marvelous than others but they never fail to empty my mind and make me feel better.

Everything about our generation is planned. It’s so important to find time for yourself and appreciate the life you have, the people you get to love and the beauty. Beauty being in whatever you want that to be: the windows down as you drive on an empty road with music blasting, the feel of your favorite blanket, the smiles on your friends' faces because you said something witty, the silence, or the sunset.

I've been alive for 19 years now, but I feel as if I have been living with my eyes half shut. I realize now there is no such thing as wasted time or need for regret. This is what living is and the sooner that's realized, the better. The best moments are unexpected and time is fleeting. Make sure to catch those moments before you realize they're gone.

“Forever is composed of nows.” - Emily Dickinson

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20 Signs You Are In Tri Sigma

"Hey look at us! We are Tri Sigma girls!"

Tri Sigma has been my best decision in college. I have met so many friends I normally would not have met. It is crazy how different we all are but we really are not that different at all. I love these girls, and if you are a Tri Sigma, I bet you love them too.

If you are a Tri Sigma., you totally get this. We can all relate to these things being part of the best sorority (in my opinion!):

1. Pearls are a staple in your wardrobe.

2. Since our symbol is the boat, you have a new love for that beach theme.

3. If purple wasn't your favorite color, it is now!

4. Glitter is your second favorite color.

5. You cringe every time someone calls you a "Tri Sig." We are Tri SigMA!

6. You get a little emotional when you watch your Little get initiated because she finally gets to share this sisterhood with you.

7. You value Wisdom, Power, Faith, Hope, and Love.


8. No matter the years or miles apart, you know your sisters will be close at heart.

9. You give Sigma snaps everytime Carrie Underwood is on the radio or TV.

10. You know the struggle to find the perfect white dress.

11. April 20th means something different to you compare to other college students.

12. You have gained a new confidence in yourself as a woman.

13. You know Robbie Page was an inspiration, but also pretty cool kid with a loving momma.

14. You have a whole wall or bookshelf dedicated to your Sigma treasures.

15. You have come to realize that as a part of Tri Sigma, you are a part of something bigger than yourself.

16. You have been referred to as the sorority with the 3 Es.

17. You know the secret about the OG Harmony CareBear.

18. Violets are one of your favorite flowers.

19. Your favorite holiday is Bid Day.

20. You can't help but throw what you know where ever you go.

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Being in A Rush to Grow Up

Reminiscing On The Past

Remember when you were younger and you used to look at college students and think, "Wow, I can not wait to be an adult." WRONG! Now that we are in college and "adulting," we realize we do not have our lives together one bit. We struggle to wake up in the morning and get to class, and if we do get to class we are lucky if we don't look like a homeless person who just crawled out of a dumpster.

I remember being so excited to grow up because I would be able to do all sorts of things that I couldn't do when I was little. It all starts with getting your permit, rushing to be 15 and not realizing what we were leaving behind. Quickly after comes 16, getting your license, hopefully a car and feeling a whole new sense of independence. That feeling of being able to go anywhere and on your own time.

After the excitement of having your driver's license wears off, then comes the big 18. The time of being completely legally allowed to be independent. Your parents can kick you out, so play your cards right, am I right. At this point the excitement sets in of heading off to college and becoming your own person. Some may not go off to continue their education though, some may go other paths which can be equally exciting.

Once you get into your first couple years of college you realize at this point that you really don't have yourself together. You get fat, you go to class, and you probably cry more than you should. It's okay, it's normal, there could be worse things happening to you, right? All you are doing now is sitting around and waiting to turn 21 so you can legally do all the things you have already been doing.

But then what? You're 21, you are legally allowed to do everything you always looked forward to. But you look back on how simple things used to be before all the hoopla of growing up happened. Do you ever wish you could just turn back time for awhile and take things slower? Enjoy the times when your mom had to drive you to practice, and your dad gave you hell on not dating until you were 30.

Part of life is growing up, but sometimes it is about looking back and wishing it didn't go by too fast. Now all we can do is sit here, fat and in debt, and look back on the times when things were simpler and we thought growing up was this ideal to be had. Enjoy now, because you are just going to get older and older and wish you were back in the days that you are currently living in.

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