I had hoped to wake up at 5:30, but I slept in an hour and fifteen minutes past that. I let this set my tone for the day. I struggled today. Even though I knew I had time for a quick breakfast and coffee, I skipped a meal because I didn't want to go outside with wet hair. I knew I would regret it later on, but I made this choice anyway. Even though I wanted to volunteer in class, I couldn't find much to stay, so I stayed quiet. Rarely did a student volunteer in class today, and the professor was clearly wishing someone would. I wish that I did. I was prideful today. I got a better grade than those sitting around me, and I felt proud of it. I wish that I would have remembered how it felt to be on the other end of it, and not felt the way that I did. I got angry today. I lashed out at a friend who only was trying to help, and I let my frustration overpower me. I was envious today. I wished that I could be someone different, not like myself at all. I struggled today. I cried today. I let my fears and anxieties consume me. I was wasteful today. I stood in the shower for an extra ten minutes, just to scald myself with hot water. I was selfish today. Man, was I selfish today. In my heart, I wanted to put others first, but there were many times that I didn't. But I did receive grace today. Lots of it. My friend brushed it off when I lashed out, even gave me a hug. Those who were around me in class congratulated me on my high score, despite the fact that they were not happy with theirs. My professor smiled at me and told me to have a nice day, even giving me all of my participation points though I chose not to volunteer. When the vending machine ate my dollar, a stranger who was in passing bought me my snack. People put me first many times today, even though I was having an off moment, an off day. I feel so much gratitude for all of the kindness that exists in small actions throughout our world. It inspires me to do thoughtful actions for others. The funny thing is, each of these people who were gracious and kind to me probably had things go wrong within their days as well. I would have never known it by the warmth that they emitted. I just think that's a very noble idea, to be warm to others despite the happenings in your day. Yes, I struggled today. But tomorrow is a new day. I will remember the grace that others granted me, and keep that with me throughout the day. I will do what I can to put others first. The thing with letting yourself have an off day, is you can hurt those around you. That may even stay with them and change the course of their day. It is so important to be kind and forgiving to everyone you meet, as they will carry this with them throughout their day.