There is so much power in forgiveness, unbeknownst to many. A power that is truly an unmatchable, force to be reckoned with. While trust, another vital trait to have relies on forgiveness as a crutch, a sort of inescapable one night lover.
It's like a promise of relief to your self at the start of any potentially emotionally/physically draining task at hand. Forgiveness grants you a pass off of a monorail to an excruciating world, full of resentment, grief, and a slew of other emotions that could cripple even the mightiest of hearts. There is true pain in uncertainty. And pain is loud and everlasting if you give it the ammunition that it needs to persist with such a blunt, ever righteous steam.
But remember, pain is simply as relevant as you choose to make it.
Forgiveness is letting go of the grievances and hard feelings about that one girl who you grew through grade school with, and she seemed to find another friend group more suitable upon entering ninth grade, though you were convinced you would be attending each other's weddings. Or the fight that kept your eyes heavy at school for days because of the late night text message exchange (ft. a guest appearance by screenshots of your 'best friend' making advances towards your 'not so boyfriend', boyfriend). Or forgiving your father for walking away after building an entire lifetime of memories.
Forgiveness is picking yourself up and reminding yourself it's okay to fall down. Because no one else was there to say it. Giving into the realization that you should make your moments count ,as they truly are trickling away. We live in a heavy world full of a lot of evil. But all that is good, is not lost. Forgiveness is remembering you shouldn't lose sleep over any one person any one moment or thing for too long. Forgiving yourself for being so over thrown with wild emotions of love, Lust, anger, sadness that were so much more intense than the emotions last. Forgiving yourself for the tiny things, as we as human beings, are very far from perfect. Something stoic that must be installed in our memory cards.
I forgave my father, and my best friend, and even the person who looked at me funny in the hall three years ago. You're the only one you can depend on, without fail, and if you're lucky enough to find another, you're truly holding one of the best kept secrets. Take care of yourself.
Believe in the power of forgiveness.
