I was browsing the internet one night, lazily searching Google for one random thing after another. I somehow landed on an article about model Ashley Graham. I had heard of her before and was curious, so I continued browsing through her Wiki profile. I was curious, so I Googled her weight. What popped up slightly shocked me.

A small blurb from Wikipedia read: "While the reputed 'average' dress size of an American women is size 14, the majority of models represented as plus-size are between a US size 6-12; therefore the models do not reflect the average consumer size."

Everybody knows models are twigs, but the fact that a size 6 is considered plus size in the fashion industry? That made me want to throw up, and not just because my stomach hurt from reading that.

30 million people suffer from eating disorders and there is truly no doubt in my mind that it is caused and perpetuated by our ridiculous societal ideals of beauty. Why do we allow this stereotype that women need to be skinny and men need to be buff dominate our lives?

I can't tell you how many times I've broken down and cried about my weight. I also can't tell you how many times my boyfriend, whom I view as flawless, has confided in me about how embarrassed he is by not being huge and muscular. Society's standards are impossible standards, period. A woman I look up to as a role model recently told me her eating disorder story and it made me realize how stuff like this affects everyone.

We are fed this whole "thin is in" ideal that is impossible to keep up with. Women are supposed to have a toned stomach, a big butt and a thigh gap. Men should have a six-pack, ridiculous biceps and can't forget about leg day so they don't have chicken legs! I've seen the damage that the thin ideal causes firsthand, mostly on myself.

I cried the day I had to buy size 8 jeans because my old ones were way too tight around my thighs.

I felt like a beached whale on vacation this summer while trying to have fun on the beach with my family. I don't wear shorts anymore because the cellulite on my thighs shows and I'm afraid someone will see. I cry over pictures of Kendall Jenner and Gigi Hadid, wondering why I was cursed with the body that looks the opposite of their perfect ones.

The truth is, the entire fashion industry is a lie and sometimes even I forget that. These models are severely underweight. Those bodybuilders take steroids. All of the images are photoshopped and airbrushed.

It is so hard to accept your body, but it is life-changing when you do. Your weight doesn't have anything to do with the person you are on the inside, regardless of how many people might not see past it. If you are healthy, then there should be no reason to worry about your weight.

Don't idolize these models and fitness gurus who go to extremes to make their bodies look a certain way. I once read somewhere that Kim Kardashian eat appetite suppressant lollipops to stay thin. What is that crap? Bring on the pizza because I would rather live life than be stuck in a never-ending cycle of trying to squeeze into size 0 jeans.