I miss you still.

We have been broken up for almost 2 and half months now and I am not going to lie, I still miss you. It is all still so fresh in my mind. Some days are fine and I don't think about you at all but, most days I still think about you.

I not only lost my boyfriend in my breakup but I also lost my best friend. Someone who I trusted with everything. I miss having someone there for me all the time. I miss having some one to laugh with and share memories with.

I miss the little things the most. Like his goofy smile and his weirdness. I miss being with him all the time. We literally used to spend all the time together and now we don't. I miss talking to him. I miss hearing him tell me that he loved me.

I can still remember the last time we kissed, the last time he told me he loved me. I go back to that memory all the time and it hurts like hell.

I miss being happy with you. When things were good in our relationship I was the happiest girl in the world. He made me so happy. I never once was unhappy with him. I miss watching FRIENDS with you and stupid Youtube videos. I miss always coming to your house. I miss your cuddles and warm, big hugs.I miss talking about the future with you, like where we would move to when I finished school, what are wedding would be like, what we would name are future kids.

I have seen you a few times since we broke up and every time it just makes me miss you more. Now when I see you I can't tell you that love you, I can't give you a hug or a kiss. I just have to pretend that seeing you doesn't bother me, that it doesn't hurt me.

When you broke up with me, I was crushed. My heart was so broken and it still is. I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with you and I was wrong. I hated that I was wrong.

Yes, it's still all so fresh. We haven't been broken up for that long so yes, I have the right to still miss him. But a part of me will always miss him. I shared a kind of love with him that I don't think I will ever find again. We were so good together. I will never forget him.

I miss you still and that's okay. It will eventually get easier and I won't think about him as often. A part of me will always love and miss him. He touched my heart in a way no one ever has before.