I don't think your life ever happens the way you plan it. You write your story in your mind with every chapter you hope to read and every journey you hope to go on. You even plan in little mishaps that might occur along the way. But sometimes the story you write isn't the one you'll end up reading.
As a child all you want to do is grow up. You dream of doing the things you see the big people in your life doing. But once you're there you hunger for more. Then as you become a teenager you strive to be able to drive and to be in high school. But once you're there, you want more. In high school you dream about being older and being successful and having a family. It's a never ending cycle. Because as soon as you're throwing your high school graduation cap you're wishing to be in your college dorm. You are always searching and hoping for more in life. Once you're in the tiny little room with your friends and your parents are miles away you only hope for more. And now as I live and breathe this exact moment I have never wanted this cycle to stop or slow down.
I want to stop being hungry for more and to just be full with the life I have. I want to be content with my life and be still in the moment. But I will always have my goals in the back of my mind. I hope to get out of my small town life. I'm thankful for this life everyday but I know the world has more to offer me. I am not in any way trying to live an ordinary life. I am trying to live an extraordinary one. I want to be able to provide for myself and even maybe experience part of my life by myself. Not in a selfish way, I just want to find myself. I don't want someone else to eclipse me. I want to be my own sun (thank you Christina Yang). I want to go out into this wonderful and vast world. I want to take in every drop it has to offer and drink it in. I want to graduate college and go to grad school. I want to make a living and love the life I'm living. I want to give. To give to my parents who have given me everything I have ever wanted and more. Maybe one day have a husband and a family but for right now I need to focus on me. I need to focus on living.
What I'm really saying is I want to live in the moment and live for today but always have my goals in mind.





















