The beginning of this year has had me questioning myself what exactly I'm wanting the tone for the rest of this year to be. I have joined my church for the second year in our 21 Days of Prayer and Fast. Starting my year off with this has helped me realize that with my college career coming to a close, I really want to focus on my relationship with Christ and my faith. For me, I see this as not only a way for me to be stronger believer, but for me to find out what I want for myself. Knowing that I usually get caught up in what the world has to offer I'm trying to turn a new leaf and focus on what I find to be best for me. I have always been the person that gives and cares for others before myself. While this is a good quality to have I often find myself being too exhausted to take care of me.
Since starting this fast and prayer I have been able to listen to what God is trying to tell me. Taking this time to be alone has really started changing what I find to be important and what I find that I can live without. I took a big step in turning in my two weeks notice in at the place I have worked at for almost two years. Knowing that God has taken a backseat because I have been putting my job before my faith was a sign that I needed to make a serious change. The other reason is that I am swamped with coursework this semester and I know myself well enough to that I couldn't balance my job with school.
Trying to take on this new semester and trying to have a new outlook on life has helped me have a brighter outlook on each day. It has been really great having everyday be a good day. This has been a breath of fresh air and it has been much needed. I spent so long dreading day after day when all I needed was a change of direction.
I'm striving to strengthen my relationships with my friends and with my family. I have been putting things into perspective and what I have come to realize is that sometimes you have to take a step back and let things happen day by day. Starting to live this way helps me be a little less stressed and try to be positive on how I want my day to be. I want to stay optimistic about the future that is coming up and what doors may open and which doors may close.
What I want to get the most out of in this year is to learn how to love harder and love more people. I want to be the kind of person that makes a positive impact on a persons day. So, here is to very welcomed new life changes. And being able to live a little louder.
