I'm not old enough to say I have great experience with "love," but I have the willing heart to find it, not only for myself, but others.
It all starts with the need to stop wasting and spending time with the wrong people. Please stop spending time with people who just suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they will make room for you, whether it's a day, an hour or a few minutes. It could lead to a lifetime, so stop wasting your own time.
You should never have to fight for a spot. Regardless, never stay with someone who overlooks your worth or potential. Value the saying, "Remember, it's not the people who stand by your side while you're at your best, but the one's who stand beside you when you're at your worst." We tell ourselves that we deserve better, so don't stick around for mediocre. One day someone will walk into your life and you will realize why it never worked with anyone else. Never chase love, affection or attention. If it isn't given freely by another person, it isn't worth having.
It doesn't matter what kind of love it is, it is gross, sappy and tough at times. Sometimes it's waiting in the McDonald's parking lot at 1 a.m., because they were too drunk to drive. But love means you don't mind feeding them the fries because you're just excited to wake up to their messy self the next morning.
Love is bumpy and dirty and silly. It's blowing raspberries on their belly while you're watching a movie, because you just want to hear them laugh. It's letting them not lose too badly in a pickup game of basketball because you know they will give you an attitude if they don't win. I think people give up so easily on love because you gave your all to someone at one point. Through thick and thin, you were there for them no matter what. That one day came when they gave up, they never even fought for you. They did the one thing you would never do without hesitation.
Throughout life, you're going to go through many of these people, but one day, you will meet a person who is unlike any other. You could talk to this person for hours and they would never get bored, you could tell them things and they would never judge. This person is your soulmate, your best friend. Never let this person go. Never underestimate the power of good morning texts, apologies and random compliments.
Sometimes you have to accept that people will always be in your heart, but not in your life. One day it just gets better, there's no explanation or reason why. You just wake up and you're not angry anymore, and it will be amazing. My goal is to be sitting next to my significant other, 80 years old, drinking coffee and he looks at me and says, "We made it through."
