Some people tell me just to cut people off, to let go of whatever I’m holding onto and just to accept that things end in life. It’s part of the process. I know that, yet I still have a hard time saying that I’m going to shut the door on a chapter of my life completely. I like to be open to editing or the idea of revision. I’ve seen people or places come back from my past and rejoin me in my present and it’s beautiful. Just when you begin to wonder if that part of your life is over and sealed, something from it returns. It catches up with you, and you get to be a part of it once again.
I guess you could say a potential downside to this characteristic would be that I have a hard time letting go of things. I like to hold onto relationships or people in general because they give me a sense of comfort and happiness that I’m somewhat addicted to. I like to feel close to people. If I find that in someone or something, I don’t like to think about it ending or think about moving on and completely leaving them in my past. This can lead to feelings that lack closure and a crazy circus in my head about how to continue on, but it’s just something I have to adapt to.
My biggest argument for why it’s okay never to say never is because who knows what will happen in your future? You certainly don’t. Maybe, someday, someone will sort of reappearance in your life. Make a comeback. A sequel. Maybe not and that’s okay. The point being is that you should never shut out the idea of a comeback so that you don’t lose opportunities. Always be open to even the craziest of possibilities and keep your view broadened. I’m not saying to drag yourself through an emotional obstacle course and base your life around the idea of some reoccurrence of something that has made an exit in your life, but just don’t rule out something never happening again, because there’s always a possibility it could.
I like the idea of always having hope. The idea of having that glimmer of something still in the back of your mind. The idea that, randomly, something could happen again that you missed. Something you always knew you were waiting for, but it happens out of nowhere. Something that floods you with energy and brings the biggest smile to your face. This is less likely to happen if you keep everything in your past completely in the past. Don’t leave your chapters with their pages untouched and never re-read. Bend the corners so, if it’s part of the plan given to you, you can always go back and remember it. Always be open to revision.
