There's a lot of things in society that really bother me, but especially for me as a young woman. I have always struggled with my weight and things of that nature, but what people don't understand is that everyone has their flaws and issues of their own. One thing for me is that I have never let my weight truly affect how I look at myself, but much like others, I still see other people and think, "Wow, I wish I looked like that", but that does not make me feel any less of a human than they are.

The problem with society today is people have to look a certain way to be beautiful and that is so untrue. At the age of 13, I was diagnosed with something referred to as PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) which I do not often discuss with others, but at this time I was also at my highest weight which was almost 200 pounds. So at the time of disappointing news, I also found out I was going to be a type two diabetic.

Being this young, all these things came along with other disheartening news like the possibility of me never being able to have my own children. But do those people in society know all of that? No. Do they judge anyways based on what I look like? Yes. We all do this, we all think our first perception of someone and their looks can somehow have a relevance to their personality and who they are as an individual. That is just how we are programmed. We make assumptions and thoughts of someone based on their looks.

Society has made it clear that unless you're 100 pounds, have long hair and an amazing smile you don't mean anything or that you don't have a purpose, but you do. I have a purpose because I am a daughter of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. He gives me a purpose that no one else can or ever will give to me.

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.

I realized at a very young age when I was being bullied for my weight that I was worth much more than that and those kind of people. I refused to be an object for someone's humor and self esteem boost. Society has made it okay for us to believe that pictures of models are real and we have somehow made that a reality in our minds when all it is is an airbrushed picture to make someone appear to be perfect, when no one actually is.

Like I said before, there's a lot of things in this world that scare me. As a Christian living in today's society, it is extremely disheartening to know how much my life and society has changed in just a few short years, I can't imagine how it is going to be when I decide to bring children of my own into this crazy, lost world. But I do know one thing and that thing is that God has a purpose for it all and even though we may not know those reasons, He is in control.

So next time someone makes you feel like you aren't worth it for one reason or another, just remember you are worth so much more than how some people can make you feel. Life isn't always going to be simple, but remember your worth, love yourself RIGHT NOW for who you are because who you are now is pretty freaking great.