She wants the C: Commitment
Ah yes, commitment. I bet at least half of you shuttered at hearing that word. Well, who am I kidding -- more than half.
The word "commitment" has taken on such a scary connotation, like it's the monster in the closet, lingering and waiting for you to get defenseless. What happened to searching for love? Now, people seem to be looking for quick thrills instead. Let's just say growing up on movies like Titanic, The Notebook, and Disney fairytales did not prepare me for this. Being swept off my feet and carried away to my beautiful castle has turned into questioning why I was left on read. Fearing commitment has become more and more of a common trend, and, quite frankly, it’s become a civil war of the sexes. I once dated someone who ultimately brought our relationship to a halt because he just “didn’t want a relationship”, while I cried over this I realized the grass isn’t greener on the other side, and I wasn’t the one losing out in this situation, because ultimately, I wouldn’t even want to be with someone with that mindset ; the mindset that commiting to someone is a jail sentence, restraining them from their freedom. How could two people work together when one avoids commitment like the plague and the other yearns for it? Did someone say "confusion"? It has lead to being in the state of what I call “dating a single”. Dating a single has happened to me, and I’m sure it has happened to you, when you act like a girlfriend to a single man. Why do we do it? Because we think we can convert them to the “dark side”. The “dark side” which consists of support, love and loyalty...sounds scary right? (Yes, I typed that rolling my eyes). So why do we do it? Why do we continuously try to talk the other person into commiting to us like we are putting on a sales pitch? Well, I for one quit that job. I’m handing in my two weeks. I don’t need “excellent persuader” on my resume. Instead, I’m choosing to turn the tables. I will commit to myself. “Yourself?” you might be asking. Yes -- MYSELF. I will commit to putting myself first and caring about what I need. Things I will commit to consist of a healthy lifestyle and loving myself and those who truly love me.
Commitment isn’t a scary thing, especially when it is in your own hands. When you can look for that commitment within yourself you will have an awakening of what you’re worth truly is. You will find that your worth is being a priority, and no one can do that better than yourself. Now, I know that sounds cliché, but there comes a time when you can see that your true source of happiness is within yourself. I realized this when I was 20 years old, and I truly wish I was enlightened to this sooner in life. I have always been there for myself, so why should I seek validation in anyone else? Self love and self commitment is my movement. Here is to 2018 and committing to ourselves.
