I know that for the most part people generally like to think if someone is super tough that they have thick skin. No, that is not really always the case. For me, I come off as bold and carefree, but I am not. My personality has become somewhat of an illusion as to what I really hide underneath all this sass.
The reality is I am so easily hurt. Over the years, I have learned to cope with being hurt with witty comebacks and snide remarks. I cannot stand the idea of other people getting hurt, and to hurt someone else destroys me.
As crazy as it seems, sometimes the people with the boldest personalities have the most sensitive hearts. I am one of those people. On the outside, I am a blunt person, and I have been called some not-so-nice names over the past few years. It's not that I am rude; I know what I want in life and I go get it. If I think what you think is a not-so-wise choice, I tell you, not because I want to be mean and hurt you, but because I actually care. Here is a list of things hopefully everyone, like me can relate to.
Your friends always come to you for advice.
They know you care, so they come to you to talk about all of life's issues; however, they buckle up for some "real" advice. Friends know if they come to you that you are not going to lie to them no matter how bad the truth might hurt.
You tend to let things fly out of your mouth and regret it later.
I know for me, on more than one occasion, I have said something super blunt to a friend, or even a total stranger and realized not even a nanosecond later I was out of line. Friends know now to wait a second and an actual apology will soon follow.
You talk a big game when it comes to confronting someone.
Get someone like myself angry and watch me talk a really big game. I might act like I am going to fight someone, but at the end of the day a person like me cares too much about actually hurting someone.
However, you will stand up for anyone in trouble.
There are those rare moments when you actually go into fight mode and will defend any of your friends in the blink of an eye; however, I might be sensitive, but I will be there to back up my friends.
Getting used to the names.
Yes, I get called names. Sometimes the "b-word" is thrown around when people describe me, and it totally hurts me. I act like I don't mind it, but it just gets under my skin. I'm not the words people call me sometimes.
Oftentimes having a sensitive heart and a blunt personality is rare. Over the last few years I've learned to embrace it. It's OK to be blunt, and it's also OK to still have a sensitive spirit. It just means that you will always be loyal and true to your friends, and I'll always be that way.
