Everyone remembers their first day of college. Or as I like to call it your first day of freedom. On your own, the world your newly uninhabited oyster. The freshman orientation where the speakers tell you that it will go by in a blink of an eye. They tell you that you will enter college as a kid and leave a well groomed adult. But being the overly exciting adolescents that we were most of us ignored that message. We believed this new found freedom would last forever. We envisioned endless nights full of friends and making memories that we would vow to never tell our children about. But then one day while binge watching a show on Netflix it hits us that we are about to enter the final chapter of our college careers.
It is now August and I am three weeks away from beginning my senior year at Stetson University and I am freaking out. Where did the time go? How did I even make it this far? And the dreaded: What’s next? When I imagined making it to my senior year I thought at this point in my life everything would be sorted out. I would know without a doubt where I would be going choosing between Grad school and Law school. By senior year I wanted to have the rest of my life mapped out. A list of long term and short term goals. A five year plan. I wanted to have a clear answer for when my relatives asked what was my next step. Today I can confidently say I HAVE NO IDEA, and I’m okay with that.
I genuinley don’t know. I’m not sure if I want to continue with school or if I want to jump straight into a career. I have no idea if I will be moving back in with my parents post graduation or looking for my own place. I have many friends that already know where they want to be a year from now. One of my friends plans to attend Grad school and another plans to move to Portland. Me? I plan to cross that bridge when I get there. Some people reading this may be having heart palpation's at the thought that I am fine just going with the flow (Sorry mom).
At this point in my life I am in no rush. I am content with enjoying my last year responsibility free and just living life. I am going to savor these last few months as a Undergraduate college student because I’ve worked hard to get here and this is the last chance for me to truly enjoy being young and care free. I want to be young. I want to stay up all night with my friends. I want to have all nighters in the library, I want to go to every school function I scoffed at freshman to junior year. I want to show some school spirit. I want to go to all of our sporting events and cheer even if we lose. If along the way I have an epiphany about what I want to do great. If I have that epiphany on May 13 when I am walking across the stage accepting my diploma that’s great too.
