This is for everyone out there who has struggled with finding someone to connect to on more than just a superficial level. You feel like you do everything for others, but in the end you just never know if they would truly do the same for you. Because of this you struggle with finding someone that will give you all that you give to them. Relationships just never seem to work out right because it always ends with “you are too good for me,” and then you are left in the dust of a broken relationship wondering what could you have done differently and how you could change things.
While you are in a mixture of thoughts and feelings, they may already be moving on without you…and you think of the opportunity you may have just missed. Then more confusion sinks in as you wonder if you ever will find the one that will make you smile no matter what is going on, the one that will be by your side because they actually want to be. When will it be your turn? To that I answer honestly, I do not know. Time is a twisted fairytale within itself that seems to be the only moderator of fate. Some may not fully believe in the idea of fate or the idea that everything happens for a reason, but for myself I most certainly do. Sometimes all we can do is to roll with what the world hands us and trust that eventually something good will come of it. But why do you always have to be the one waiting for eventually? This my dears is another question to which I cannot answer because it is something that is out of our control.
The only advice that I can truly offer is that when you have the opportunity to truly be yourself, be it. Know and fully realize that the reason as to why a relationship didn’t work out wasn’t because you forgot to call one night and it wasn’t because you weren’t worth it. You are worth a relationship if that is what you truthfully want, and do not settle for those that just let you put the checks on your invisible companion checklist. A relationship, to me at least, is a union of two people that are fully understanding and passionate for one another. The perfect relationship allows you to be exactly who you are without changing it for a second. But just because we all have these self-defined versions of what the perfect relationship is, doesn’t mean that you must be in one. As I mentioned above, no matter what situation you end up being in, be yourself. Show your true and unique colors whether that be in front of an audience or in front of a mirror. No matter what happens remind yourself that your experiences and soul are what make you who you are. And considering how far you’ve come to get to this point of acceptance, never give up on yourself because you are here for a reason.
My hope for the future are that those of you whom are continuously fighting these self versus relationship battles will be able to find your inner peace. Just remember that his inner peace may look different for everyone so do not make assumptions. Some may be content as they are, while others are still working each and every day to find exactly who they are and what they want from the world. In this day in age where we are often warped into unrealistic expectations, be sure to remember that the only expectations that you need to live up to, are the ones that you set for yourself. Never be afraid to be you, and never change your soul for someone else. Be one with yourself and let fate work its magic as it wishes.
