Last night I attended our bi-yearly scholarship banquet where we come together as a group and share our appreciation for what has been given to us. It's always full of great conversation, catching up with friends, and time with mentors. However, as we heard from the speaker, I repeatedly heard the remark that many of us would not have been able to attend a four-year university if it were not for this scholarship. While this may be true for many of my fellow scholars, this is not true for me. I still would have attended a university. I would have taken out more loans than I knew was possible. I would have worked more hours than I thought possible, and I would have struggled to make ends meet. But I still would have attended college. So the more that I heard this phrase, the guiltier I began to feel. I was afraid that I had taken this scholarship away from someone who was not able to attend college. However, the more that I thought about it, the more I realized that this scholarship has given me so much more than just an opportunity to get a degree.

This scholarship has given me the tools that I need to succeed. Because of the well-planned structure of the scholarship program, I am able to have mentors. I get to spend time with successful people on campus that can give me the tools, knowledge, and connections that I need to thrive and succeed while at this university, and in the years to follow. I am encouraged to attend events that will better me and my future. My mentors have become a great help to me as I work towards my degree.

Through the Smith-Hutson Scholarship, I have recognized my potential. I have found that I am capable of working, attending school, and keeping up with my extra-curricular activities. Because I don't have to worry about finances, I am able to participate in as much as possible to get the most out of my experience here. Through these extra-curriculars, I am able to meet more people to help me along the way, as well as teach me the skills I need to excel in these areas. I have made lasting friendships and had irreplaceable experiences that I will carry with me throughout my life.

Most importantly, I have found that people believe in me. When I get anxious and feel like there is no way that I can finish this paper and study for this exam and make it to work, I remember that a man out there believes in me enough to invest in my education. He believes that I can excel and that his money will be well spent because I will become an exceedingly well functioning member of our society. I remember that I have a group of mentors that know that I am capable of incredible things and are willing to help get me there. I know that I have peers that are going through this journey with me and are willing to fight these battles by my side.

So yes, I may have still attended college. I may have even still finished and gotten a degree. But I would not have had the experiences, the mentors, the friends, or the self confidence that the Smith-Hutson Scholarship has provided me with. And for that, I am eternally grateful. Thank you, Mr. Smith. I cannot wait to give back what I have received, hopefully ten-fold.