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Scared Out Of My Damn Mind

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Scared Out Of My Damn Mind
George Marks

Let’s be real for a moment.

The majority of us, when faced with the future, are just going blank, and can’t seem to see the pathway that will lead us to our destination. For those of you out there who can see that path, communicate with me right away and tell me your secrets. (I promise to share them with everyone, ergo, no more secrets!) ;)

To be quite frank, not knowing how to accomplish my dream, or by what path I will have to take to get me there, I am terrified. Everyday that I wake up is another day that has gone by, and what have I accomplished? Have I done something to be proud of? Have I accomplished some great task even if it’s a small one? What am I doing with my time?

I’m a procrastinator, and as a writer it’s like kryptonite; I’m self-sabotaging by giving into it. But oh, the sweet sensation of watching pre-recorded T.V. shows is so alluring, and tempting that I find myself with a remote in my hand before the thought is finished. (I do consider watching T.V. to be educational, and in a sense my research because it’s where my own imagination can be stimulated). Same goes for a book, a game, music, any social media, etc … I can go on and on.

I am my own worst enemy. Does that mean I’m afraid of myself? If I’m what’s stopping the progress, should I be scared of me? It is October, and the monsters are creeping out of the woodwork (literally for the Stranger Things fans reading this). Maybe I should give into this monster vibe, and create a work of horror that frightens all those who dare read it’s content. I could possibly even curse them all… but I am not sure I want to use my magic for that. (Too much work)

My path isn’t that complicated. Write children’s books and YA books and self-publish until someone realizes I’m fabulous, and my books are sensational, signs me, and I get to be proud of my accomplishment. Truth be told, however, no matter how many seminars I listen in on and how many websites I read, I can’t ever seem to get a lock down on the process of being a writer. I was an actress, and it’s crazy how parallel the two industries are. You have to promote yourself until others are doing it for you, and even then it’s not like I’ll have figured it all out.

I’m sure you will all be hearing from me soon on my “progress”/”the process” because maybe while I figure this all out, I can help someone else figure it out too. The buddy system is always the best system. This article might even get me some tips on what one does. A checklist would be awesome.

Step one: STOP PROCRASTINATING!

I will start working on step one! How about you? Do you have a handle on procrastinating? If so, please tell me your secrets.

Being a writer is a double-sided coin. At times, things can go real smooth and easy. The winds are at your sails. And then the other times, the wind is dead, the sea is smooth, you are stuck without a paddle and there are sharks circling! I hope that imagery is painting a very clear picture for you. If you would like some gore, please place your hand in the water. I’m sure you will be fine! It’s only the month of Halloween and fright after all!

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