People always tell you that college is the next step. I have always tried to prepare myself for it, but it's so hard to know if it's going to be the right step. Do you really want to risk failing the biggest part of life? That is something you have to risk. It's terrifying because you never know what could actually happen. You never know if you will fail or actually make it through. There is the fear of you falling flat on your face. There is the fear of making everyone disappointed in you. There are so many reasons why I'm scared to move forward with my life.

1. I'm scared of failing.

Failing is something that is a part of life. If you fail you disappoint not only yourself but everyone around you. These goals you try so hard to achieve can all be gone in the blink of an eye. You could just lose everything by one simple mistake. Failing is one thing that is hard for everyone. I always tried to be the perfect daughter, mother, and fiancee. I try my hardest. Then, when it happens to go wrong I hate everything about myself. Being a failure is something that no one wants to be. Failing is something that we do on a daily basis, but we don't like doing it. Do we honestly have a choice? Maybe we do, but maybe we don't.

2. I always run from the hard things.

I am one of those people that tend to run away when things get hard. I don't want to face the bad things in life. I would rather not deal with it. If I do deal with it, it's on my own time. I don't want to deal with the things that are hard for me. If it's not going perfectly, I would rather run away and not deal with it.

3. I need perfection.

To someone on the outside, I have a pretty perfect life. But, the sad thing is, it isn't enough for me. I need perfection. I need everything to be best it can be. Even though in all reality, my life is the idea of perfection to anyone who would want what I have, but that is never good enough for me. I need better. I need everything to be the very best it can be. I want the perfect house, car, kids, marriage, life in general, but I can't expect that. I should accept what I have because it's already perfect.

4. School was hard for me.

School was something I always struggled with. I dealt with not learning things as easily as others and I struggled to understand a lot of things. I am not the best at learning, and I'm definitely not the best at understanding. This is something that is incredibly difficult for me. I hate the fact that I can't be the perfect student.

Let's admit it, we are all scared of something. We are all scared to take the next step and fail. We are all scared to look back and realize we did everything wrong in this life. I need to come to terms with these struggles in order to move forward with my life and to find the courage to be truly happy.