Saying goodbye to close family and friends is never easy at all! Going into my sophomore year I know more of what to expect when leaving for school again but it still never gets easier. Goodbyes are honestly the worst even if it is just a "see you later." Going into freshman year I made it a point to say goodbye to all my friends from high school and to make sure I saw them over the summer. We made promises that we would all talk everyday, and hang out when we were home for breaks and after the school year was over. But the months went by and at first those promises were kept and then it turned into like once a month someone would send an "I miss you" text and we would chat for a bit. Next, little do you know the school year is coming to an end and you have managed to only keep a select few of those people in your life. For me college truly showed me who my true and life long friends were.
I really am not a fan of goodbyes. Because most of the time saying goodbye means change, and this girl does not do well with change. To me a goodbye is so scary because we never know what that goodbye will bring. For example, I have said goodbye to all my friends from home and then now I barely talk to half of them, but it is the people whom I am even closer with now that mean the most. However, even just saying goodbye to my family hurts, obviously I will be staying in touch with them no matter what but it means change, new beginnings, and stories that I won't be able to sit down at the dinner table and share with them everyday. It is interesting this time around there are a select few people other than family members who I made it a point to say goodbye to before I left.
It is scary saying goodbye to your best friends because you have grown up with them, experienced new things with them, and have become who you are with them. Now you go your separate ways and they take on this journey without you, yes you are just a call away, but you fear what if that call isn't enough for them. Deep down you know that these people whom you stay so close with and talk as much as you can are the ones who mean the world to you. And if you made it this far into life over life bumps and unexpected moments then you sure as hell do not have to worry. But instead of looking at goodbyes in a negative way I try to find the positives; like saying goodbye means I am continuing this journey and it is so awesome that I have these select few people to share this journey with. And when we get home they will be there. They are not going anywhere and goodbyes do not mean forever.
