Recently it has come to my attention that I say sorry wayyyyyyyyyy too much. When I say "recently" I really mean like circa 2013, but as I have continued my college career it has been said more than once. It seems like that recently this has become every other phrase that has worked its way into my vocabulary.
Why am I saying sorry so often you ask? Well that's a great question, and hopefully I will be able to answer it for myself by the end of this article.
We as people have goals and objectives, we want to do great things. We want others to be proud of our accomplishments, celebrate our successes and forget our failures. But this is not always the case; sometimes our failures are burned into people's memories and often cause us more worry than the other party. I find myself striving for perfection in everything I do. What good is it to accomplish a goal if you didn't do it at 110% amirite?
If you are anything like me your plan to accomplish your goals often has a few holes in it and you eventually end up disappointing someone. When that happens to me I find myself saying "sorry." As a sit here and write this I think, why should I be sorry? Why should I be saying sorry for something happening that is out of my control? Why should I apologize to people who know me? Who know my intentions and character?
I am a people pleaser, confrontation avoider, and I hate being wrong, but most importantly I am a work in progress. Why should I say sorry for that? We are all trying to improve some aspect of our character or daily routine so why do I always feel obligated to say I'm sorry?
Lastly, I am an empowered woman who knows what I want out of life. Not to brag or anything but I think I'm pretty dang awesome. So why do I apologize for taking charge and going after things I want? I think just like anyone I care about image and perception. I apologize for my character and attitude when no one else does, thinking this will leave a positive impression.
However, what I have learned is this can have the opposite effect. When I apologies for my own character people can see this as a lack of confidence and a way to steam roll. No one should be ashamed of who they are and going after what they want.
So I don't know if I truly answered why I always say sorry, and I could apologize for not answering all the questions I posed. But, I'm not going too. I will leave y'all with this, saying "I'm sorry" will often loose its affect and genuine meaning when you use it in every other conversation.
