It’s back to school time and once again I find myself completely focused on getting all of the cute supplies for class and planning out my outfits for each day. But this year I want to focus on things that a bit more important… okay A LOT more important. Things like my well being, friendships, and my relationship with Jesus. Every year of school I vow to make it the best year and I have begun to realize that at the end of those years I am not completely satisfied. Maybe because of problems with friends or grades or just some random goals I didn’t make. But this time I was able to really step back and decide that I’m going to make this year count, not for anyone else or to make other people happy, but just for myself.
Some of the changes I have made are in my classes. The last two years or my high school journey I have taken classes to prove my worth to others or show that “Hey, I can do this too.” This year, I made a change and I signed up for the classes I want to take, I don’t need to prove anything to other people, I need to prove to myself that it is okay to do things for me and I don’t need to constantly be a people pleaser. It sounds like such a simple thing but I honestly could not be happier that I decided to go my own way and I trust things to work out.
Over the summer I did some self discovery and I have had the chance to let go of a lot of toxic people. Doing that is one of the best decisions I could have made and I’m really proud of myself. Along with getting rid of the toxicity, I have gained some awesome friendships. Cleaning out the bad relationships in my life opened up a door for new people and it’s given me a new perspective on my friendships. I have grown to love being independent as well and I actually enjoy alone time because it gives me time to be with God and talk with Him about my thoughts, hopes, and dreams.
This year I hope to have a deeper relationship with Jesus and learn to trust all that he is doing in my life. The school year is a busy time and I tend to get caught up in other activities and sometimes I forget to take time out for Jesus. Trusting His plans for my life is a promise to help through the difficult times. I’m learning to be patient and instead of constantly searching for the miracles, just sit back and watch as God works in amazing ways. This year, I will make it the best year.
