Call me a hypocrite, for relief in life I rely on this idea that everything in my life has a reason, which I like to think results in not having any regrets. I wrapped up my first semester of college and as I look into my future. I constantly feel like I am missing something, but I am not exactly sure what. I have all the people in my life that I would possibly need and I do not really need any type of object.

As hard as it is for me to admit, I have these regrets that are just unspoken of. I never speak of my regrets because in a way it’s embarrassing. My biggest regrets are from high school. Before you judge me keep in mind that high school is when someone truly starts to evolve. I myself did not evolve because I regret not being open to the fact that high school was important.

I was not popular in high school at all; I was friendly with most people in my class, but I was not very close with anyone. I had friends growing up at a young age but they had more “adult” things to attend to. I regret not opening open to people in high school. Eating lunch alone all the time is not something I would like to remember. I use to wonder if people would like me if they did ever get to know me in high school, but I guess now I will never know.

I remember my freshman year of high school, the biggest topic would be preparing for college, which never made any sense to me but, I went along with it anyways. I stressed myself out about everything that had to do with education and at the end of every day I felt worst about myself because I never felt like I was good in all that I did, and that even included all sports that I was involved in. I regret not enjoying all that my high school education had to offer me; I could have truly made something special out of it.

I would hope no high schooler would ever feel more out of place than I did. If I could tell any high schooler anything I would tell them; things are temporary and since you are strong I promise things will get better. Even though I may have regrets there are things about my past that I am proud of, like not changing who I am to fit in. I would never be able to live with myself if I pretended to be something I was not, that is one regret that I do not carry the burden of.