Most of us grew up with Jim Carrey. Because of this, it’s easy for us to think we know him. He’s like everyone else; he has his ups and downs.
But…
I'm honestly worried about him. Sure, we can say he’s naturally sarcastic and makes jokes here and there because that’s him. But didn’t we say the same thing about Robin Williams?
I’m worried that Jim Carrey is spiraling down the road nobody wants to talk about and the media is just caught up with him being “crazy, eccentric, or just weird.” I started really noticing changes in him from his “I Need Color” interview.
Carrey’s, "I Need Color," interview opens with stating how people do not choose life or their vocation. Basically, we are given the hand we are dealt and make the best of it.
Carrey states that his motivation for painting was a depressing winter in New York when he looked out the window and needed color. He became obsessed with painting to the point where there was no room to move in his home. Some people may take this literally that he just wanted summer to come along since it’s vibrant and lively, but there’s a psychological depth to this that shouldn’t be brushed off so easily. Aside from Carrey admitting to struggling with depression before, Carrey indicated that the dark colors in his art symbolize the darkness in him, while the light color reflects the opposite, and in retrospect, he is able to see different things that were going on within himself at times. He often writes poetry, sketches, paints, and keeps to himself, but feels painting frees him from “the future, past, regret, and worry.”
When I first saw the video months ago I thought about how depressed he sounds because he also mentioned healing from a broken heart and welcoming his isolation in hopes of “reentering the atmosphere.”
As many of us know, Jim Carrey’s ex-girlfriend died of a multiple drug overdose and left a suicide note saying, “I’m not for this world” just days after they had split. There’s no doubt the effects this can have on a person.
[Carrey] “I can go on brokenhearted and try to put the pieces back. I could, I just don’t have the will this time.”
My worry has resurfaced because of Carrey’s recent interview at New York Fashion Week.
Some of his quotes from the event:
“There’s no meaning to any of this. So I wanted to find the most meaningless thing that I could come to and join and here I am.”
“You gotta admit… it’s completely meaningless.”
“Celebrating icons? That is just the absolute, lowest-aiming possibility that we could come up with.”
“I didn’t get dressed up. There is no me. There’s just things happening.”
“I don't believe in personalities. I believe that peace lies beyond personality, beyond invention and disguise, beyond the red 'S' that you wear on your chest that makes bullets bounce off. I believe we are a field of energy dancing for itself. And I don’t care.”
I am not against his existential perspective, and I can actually understand and possibly agree with his last statement to an extent. The "I don't care" statement could very well mean he's leaving emotional baggage behind. But we don't know this for sure. I just want to know that he’s not a suicide risk. I am hoping that his existential perspective is acting more as a defense mechanism to protect him (whether he knows it or not) from those dark places that he spoke about before.
I just don’t want another Chester Bennington
I don’t want another Robin Williams.
I don’t want that for Jim Carrey.
