Okay, let's be honest, if you've never changed your mind about what you want to study in college or what you want to do for the rest of your life... then you have your life way too put together and while I'm giving you loads of credit, I'm also a little envious as I cringe at some of the things I THOUGHT I wanted to do. But let's be real, everyone changes their mind at some point. There's nothing wrong with that, evaluation is good, so embrace it.
Throughout high school and parts of middle school, I imagined my adult-life to be smooth sailing and successful. When I was 10, I wanted to be a teacher. When I was 12, I wanted to deliver babies. When I was 14, I wanted to be a writer/journalist (haha), and when I was 15, I wanted to be a nurse. Then, when I was 17, I wanted to do nothing but psychology. I'm now 19 years old and I've never been surer of anything in all of 19 years on earth.
Throughout my life psychology always interested me and the mind and thoughts always struck me as something fascinating, but it never seemed like anything I would be capable of doing. But I had to realize you can really do anything if you really want it badly enough, and that's what I've chosen to do here.
All of my past "dream jobs" kind of gave me an "eh, whatever" feeling and when it came to my life and my future I wanted a "gut-wrenching yes" feeling. When I took psychology during my senior year of high school and my teacher went over all the kinds of psychologists you can be and when he showed us that diagram of a brain, I was hooked. Completely geeked out and nerded-to-the-max hooked. And I knew. I had that gut-wrenching positive feeling and I just knew.
Psychology is a shot in the dark, its a miss first before its a hit, but that's all I want to do and I can't see myself doing anything else. My dream job is to work in a school and be a school psychologist, and I will truly do anything it takes to get there. So even though there are those days where majoring in this field seems likes a joke and my goals feel so far out of my reach and the water becomes foggy and too deep to stand, I remember those "eh, whatever" feelings and all the passion returns. All of the fights inside of me come back and I remember who I am. And who I am is a person who is dead set on achieving their goals.
Don't belittle the destination just because the ride there gets a little bumpy. The destination will always be worth the work. I'll look back to when I was in high school debating what I wanted to do and when I was in college doubting myself for going into such a complicated field, and I'll laugh at my past self as I sit at my desk at my absolute dream job. It's all about the endgame. Never ever forget about the end game.
