Yes, I have friends. Yes, I have a group of people I consider my best friends. No, I am not alone. I am surrounded by people I love, and I know they love me. I have just never had one singular person that I consider number one over all. I also know that I am no one's singular person. Sometimes I feel it. Sometimes, I need someone to talk to, and I can't decide which close friend I trust the most. I also look at social media to see people from my friend groups posting individual pictures next to their single best friend. I know I am not theirs, and it sometimes feels uncomfortable. However, people without best friends have it easier in some ways.
We don't have an obligation to the secret keeper of one person. Usually, we have a group that all know each other's secrets. There is no pressure in talking or not talking about it. Also, we don't have one person constantly in our business. Sometimes best friends to get into fights because they are so intertwined in each other's lives. Not having one best friend allows us to have fresh air -- hang out with one friend one day and two different friends the next. We get healthy separation. We usually don't get into fights with people, and that is less stressful. Lastly, we don't have to focus on keeping one relationship as if it's the most important relationship we ever had. We get to have comfortable relationships with other people, and no one is more important than another. Our lives our level. We have many people to trust in. We have so many more people to confide in. We have options.
It seems great. We seem so happy. Then there are the instances where all we want is one person with us.
Take all the pros paragraph and turn it over. Sometimes we only want one person to keep our secrets, there are huge group fights to deal with, and there are days that without our friend group, we do feel alone. There is no singular person to truly talk to. We also are not ingrained in people's lives. Sometimes we are just an outlier getting a peek in. We are a friend to be casual with, not intimate with. Sometimes we are separated from others too long, and we come back to see our group moving on. We can't latch onto someone. We aren't a package deal with anyone. Lastly, we have to focus on so many other relationships that we just wish we could focus on building one. We need to prioritize our friends, and we don't know how to. Sometimes, we wish their was someone to take precedent over everyone. Our lives get complicated with so many people that we wish there was just one person to bond with.
We get the best and worst of both worlds. We are happy but we also want more. We understand our place, but there is still hope to have one person to communicate with. It could happen, and it could not. For now, we live our double lives, being happy with many people while wondering what it would be like to have one connection within the chaos.
