First things first, you are loved. From the day I was old enough to comprehend marriage, my thoughts were with you. I didn’t know who it would be, or when it would be, or why it would be... but my thoughts were with you. I was sending love to you from the very first day and have been sending love to you since then.

In the Book of Ruth in the Bible, I began to dive into that short chapter of the book and realized that God was preparing me for you. On tough days, sad days, and those really long days, I was praying for you. I was praying that you would be strong enough to conquer all the world was throwing at you. I was confident you would be the strongest and most loving man in my life.

I KNEW God was preparing you for me.

Some way or another, our worlds would clash and it would be like one of those corny movie scenes. I’d fall in love but what I really wanted was for you to feel the same as me at such a young age. I never wanted marriage or kids or anything of that sort, I wanted a companion first. I wanted to be able to spend days laying on the beach, or all day in bed with Netflix, or getting dressed up and drink wine at a fancy place. I wanted to know you more than any human being that I knew. I know you’ll always understand my past, and assure me my sins are forgiven and your past isn’t perfect either, but it kills me to know I “thought” I knew what love was before you.

I was that girl waiting for you with the wrong person.

So it was over before I could say the words, and after a season of being depressed, you came to me.

I’m not sure what your intentions were or if you wanted a relationship like I so desired. I knew it would find me and eventually I would know the true meaning of “love.” A bit scary right? So I made a promise to myself that I would wait for the right guy next time. So, I waited my entire life to see you, to meet you, and to love you. There were many days I felt alone and sad, but I knew at some point I'd find you, and I wouldn’t let you go once that moment came.

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What I wanted was you; to be with someone who put me first, who could tell me my faults, and who wanted commitment as strongly as I do.

Flashback to the Book of Ruth in the Bible. She was the epitome of all I wanted and hoped to be. After losing what she THOUGHT was the love of her life, she stayed faithful to God’s love for her. She realized that staying true to God would bring her true love, and she found it in Boaz. She fell in love and realized all the important things in life. She was a woman of God. She was God-fearing and welcome to wait for His time, to wait as long as she had to until the right man came along.

I was always praying to find my “Boaz.”

My God was setting me up for the perfect situation. I don’t know what was made to be. God wasn’t making me wait for no reason, He was making me wait because He was preparing you, for me. Woah. Doesn’t that make your heart flutter? God knows the plans of life, heck, He knows every piece of hair on your head. How lucky am I that He was preparing you for me? I will feel butterflies when I meet you, cry happy tears, and never leave your side. I’ll take your good days and bad days, I’ll be there to help you through everything. I hope you compliment me any chance you get, and that just being together is more fun than any night out with friends.

I know your heart will be filled with God, pure gold. Why? Because He has assured me of this. I will be so happy to get to say I know you.

I hope I just ramble on and on to you about my friends and how wonderful you are to me. How you make me blush, the butterflies, and the goodnight kisses. I want surprises in my mailbox, fancy dates, and lazy days, because I promise, I’ll do the same for you, and more. Whether it’s going out late at night or staying in just you and me, I hope that we have a kind of love that never ends. I hope your relationship with Christ grows and so does mine. I hope we work together to build a bond that can withstand anything thrown its way. I hope you, my guy, never think less of yourself. I love a man who does it all, and I always have in my corner.

God knew this, God chose this. THAT is how special you are to me.

If we are together or apart, we’ll never venture far from one another. I know our friendship and I know we will always be best friends before lovers. I am hoping you see God is preparing us for our day, and I hope you pray for me as I pray for you. I adore you, I mean that. Wherever you are, soulmate, I adore you. My love, I am praying for you. Always. I can not wait to meet you. Here's to you, wherever you are, and our future together.