I have this theory. This theory is based upon our subconscious. I was asked the other day this direct question.

"Do you subconsciously think you aren't worthy of it? Like of being happy with the way you look?"

This question inspired me. Something in me sparked as if I was fully exuberant and reaching some sort of light with my fingertips. I was just an inch away from some sort of bright source that wouldn't be set off until I wrote about it.

We all know the huge topic about loving yourself. Yeah, this is a topic I am going to try and stay clear of. I want to fill your mind with strategies to get your head fully wrapped around the concept of language and, oh goodness, lets not forget about words. Because yes, sticks and stones will break your bones, but words... I'm sorry, will always effect the way that you see and feel about yourself, they will hurt you. Individuals always seem to be so obsessed with words. She tweeted this, he posted that, she called me a "hoe," he called me a "bitch."

Are you getting this process yet? It starts out with how others think of you. Your friend can easily text you saying, "Wow, you look really pretty/handsome today." But let's not forget about the text you get from your ex saying, "You don't deserve to be alive, you breaking up with me will be the worst decision of your life."

Yeah, I have received both of these texts before -- on the same exact day. I was called beautiful and then told that i was unworthy of living. Which one stuck with me until I crawled into bed and stared at the ceiling, questioning my purpose on this damned Earth? Being unworthy of living.

Those words hit me as if professional boxers lined up and decided to punch me in the face, one..by..one. That's what it felt like at least, as if what I had to offer was not enough for this world because the way certain individuals perceived me, was who I thought I was.

WRONG! All WRONG! I took a journey. Let's say so far an almost two-year journey. Not a walk of despair and sorrow, but a walk of clarity and fulfillment.

Words hurt, because people matter. The most hateful words come from the people we trust, and unfortunately, the ones we tend to love the most as if the sun shines out of their perfect a**.

Here's the thing though: use your voice, and self-persuade.

Tell yourself that words hurt because people matter but most of all YOU matter, and your own words will hurt you the most.

Tell yourself who you want to become because you, and you, in particular, were handmade by the effortless touch of what we believe in.

Tell yourself you will reach those goals.

Tell yourself that you will gracefully show the people around you who constantly tell you, "Your dreams are too big," that no dream is TOO big. Tell yourself that theories exist and that one has yet to be proven.

When you look at your reflection in the mirror, look at the curves and linings of your face and tell yourself that you were perfectly painted on God's canvas and that you are spine-tingling intriguing to look at.

You have a power over your own language. Do not ever give someone the power to hold heart-sulking words above your will-filled talents.

I am an extremely expressive person, I need ways to show my emotions without ugly facial expressions and salty tears dropping beneath my chin. What did I do? I told myself I was going to be a writer. Was I a writer yet? No. But I practiced, I asked for help. I pushed my imaginative mind to do it's hefty part. Now, today? I am a writer.

You want to be a runner? Tell yourself that you will become one, and then be one. BE ONE. Be who YOU want to be. Be the way YOUR words define you and never let it be the other way around. People are mean, rude, and ruthless. But what do you have to change in order for you to be able to conquer and define your absolute, own self even though people like to stick your head in the dirt? Power over your own language.

The language your mind likes to pray with when falling asleep, the language your mind uses when telling you to take a deep breath before you perform, the language you use to block out the negative comments to replace with positive ones. Never let an individual hold power over you with the dull, pessimistic vibe of their words, as if he/she knows the potential of your strength and the willingness of your courage.

Do not fall short by simply selling yourself short when you have your own language and power.

I was told that I am, "Too pretty to be gay." I can't explain the extent to the way I was feeling in that particular moment, besides heartbroken. After that day, I tried to force connections with guys that were undeserving of my kindness and too dull for my expressive personality. Read that again.

I tried to change myself.

But now? When I hear those 5 words, I simply look at that person and smile. I simply say to myself, "Don't waste your breath on evil, you're way too pretty to be straight."

Mind Blowing, I know.