I do love you both. Please don't think I don't.

I just feel the love we share is a need to versus a want.

We share history and a bloodline too,

But our relationship could be better,

Our connection too.

It feels like we were born and pushed together,

Told that we had to love one another because that's what family does,

Unconditionally. Under any circumstance.

I love you, I'm there for you,

Cause we won't have a second chance.

But that's just it...

Was there ever a first?

We were born as strangers to one another,

Forced to share our lives,

Never given a chance,

To develop and analyze who we each were as people.

At least this is how I feel...

Our love is but a show we put on,

More so because you see,

Our age gap, plus an indirect separation gap,

Our love was quite clearly a have to,

And I believe, deep down you agree with me.

Who are you two to me?

Together we're S, K, and B, respectively.

The Blair kids...that's all we've come to be.

I don't feel I really know either of you,

Though I believe this is only circumstantial,

We three are all in completely different places in our lives,

Places that are damn near impossible to combine.

An adultier-adult, an adult, and a teenager,

Years that divide, and a marriage that both divides and connects.

Almost a set up, like legos- pull them apart and what toy is next?

We all share genetics, I genuinely wish there were more,

Personality is kinda there but what good is that for?

Three different people, still strangers in my eyes,

Hopefully with equal effort, we could all connect as we've been taught,

Perhaps all the life we've lived,

All the trials we've survived,

It'll all mean something,

When we're on the same playing field.

I do love you both. Please don't think I don't.

I just don't want the love we have to go from can,

to won't.