When We Were Us

When We Were Us

Remember when?


You would eat sliced bananas on your cereal in the mornings.

You told me they were the only fruit you liked, so I bought them in bulk and you stuffed your face with them, and that made me smile.

I don't know when I stopped smiling at that.

Maybe it was when you stopped eating your breakfast at home.

You used to kiss me in the nighttime before we fell asleep.

Your mouth was warm and sweet, and your lips were so thin but they kissed so well that I never noticed then.

I don't know when I began to notice how thin your lips really were.

Maybe it was when they stopped speaking to me for reasons I don't understand.

Maybe it was when they stopped kissing me before the lights went out at night.

You used to sit me on your lap while you watched football games.

I never knew a thing about the game or the plays, but you wanted me there to root on your team and to make you smile just by looking at my face.

I'd cheer when your team did something right, and I'd cry when they lost because them losing broke your heart, and your broken heart meant my broken soul; I loved you just that much.

I don't know when I stopped sitting on your lap and cheering for a sport I never cared to understand and kissing you when they scored just because you were happy, and I was happy just because you were.

Maybe it was when you dropped the football games at home for football games at bars with friends and friends of friends and strangers whose names you didn't know, as if their company was better than mine.

Maybe you just stopped liking the game.

You used to watch me paint like I really was an artist and like you were my biggest fan.

You'd stand in the doorway and stare at my hands, and you'd never say a word as if lost in the colors on my canvas.

I asked you once what you were thinking while you watched me create something out of nothing, and you told me that you'd been questioning how God had come up with the concept of me.

Had He spoken me into existence with the single word "beauty"? Had He thought of you and placed me in your path just to keep you running after something too grand to ever hold?

I never meant to cry when you said things like that because crying was never my thing. But you turned me into a person who cared about the tiny things and the big things and you more than anything else.

I don't know when you stopped watching me paint, stopped leaning against the doorframe and staring at my hands.

Maybe it was when all of the color left the world for you. When you lost your vision and your purpose and everything that made your world beautiful and bright and worth it.

You were always beautiful. And bright. And worth it.

You used to think that I was beautiful. And bright. And worth it.

I don't know when that changed.

Maybe it was when you let go of my hand and found value in the less valuable things.

Maybe it was when you walked away from love because love wasn't something you could define with reason.

Maybe we're better now.

Maybe we're worse.

But I still buy bananas in bulk by instinct and by hope that you'll show up one day and eat them just before they spoil.

You never do.

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20 Small Tattoos With Big Meanings

Tattoos with meaning you can't deny.

It's tough to find perfect tattoos with meaning.

You probably want something permanent on your body to mean something deeply, but how do you choose a tattoo that will still be significant in 5, 10, 15, or 50 years? Over time, tattoos have lost much of their stigma and many people consider them a form of art, but it's still possible to get a tattoo you regret.

So here are 20 tattoos you can't go wrong with. Each tattoo has its own unique meaning, but don't blame me if you still have to deal with questions that everyone with a tattoo is tired of hearing!

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1. A semi-colon indicates a pause in a sentence but does not end. Sometimes it seems like you may have stopped, but you choose to continue on.

2. "A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor."

3. Top symbol: unclosed delta symbol which represents open to change. Bottom symbol: strategy.

4. "There are nights when the wolves are silent and only the moon howls."

5. Viking symbol meaning "create your own reality."

6.Greek symbol of Inguz: where there's a will, there's a way.

7. Psalm 18:33 "He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he causes me to stand on the heights."

8. 'Ohm' tattoo that represents 4 different states of consciousness and a world of illusion: waking (jagrat), dreaming (swapna), deep sleep (sushupti), transcendental state (turiya) and world of illusion (maya)

9. Alchemy: symbolizes copper, means love, balance, feminine beauty and artistic creativity.

10. The Greek word “Meraki" means to do something with soul, passion, love and creativity or to put yourself in to whatever you do.

11. Malin (Skövde, Sweden) – you have to face setbacks to be able to go forward.

12. Symbol meaning "thief" from the Hobbit. It was the rune Gandalf etched into Bilbo's door so the dwarves could find his house.

13. “Lux in tenebris" means “light in darkness."

14. Anchor Tattoo: symbolizing strength & stability, something (or someone) who holds you in place, and provides you the strength to hold on no matter how rough things get.

15."Ad Maiora" is translated literally as “Towards greater things." It is a formula of greeting used to wish more success in life, career or love.

16. A glyphs means “explore." It was meant as a reminder for me to never stop exploring.

17. "Aut inveniam viam aut faciam," meaning roughly, "Either I shall find a way, or I will make one."

18. Lotus Flower. It grows in muddy water, and it is this environment that gives forth the flower's first and most literal meaning: rising and blooming above the murk to achieve enlightenment.

19. The zen (or ensō) circle to me represents enlightenment, the universe & the strength we all have inside of us.

20. Two meanings. The moon affirms life. It looks as if it is constantly changing. Can reminds us of the inconsistency of life. It is also symbolizes the continuous circular nature of time and even karma.

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A Tip For The Girl Who's Tired Of Spending So Much Money On False Eyelashes

Everyone wants to save money, so why not save money by reusing your false eyelashes.


Buying false lashes is a must, it brings together the whole make up look. Whether you are doing winged eyeliner, or just a simple look, false lashes are what help the look. But, you have to learn how to reuse your false lashes because no one has time to keep going by buying new lashes every time you want to do a new look.

First, let's start off by understanding your lashes, now me personally I prefer cheap beauty store false lashes because they are cute, cheap, and get the job done just like an expensive pair of false lashes would. You don't have to go out and spend $15 on one pair of false lashes. Aliexpress have false lashes as low as .66 cent. You're welcome, I just put you on to your new favorite website.

Now let's say you applied a new pair of lashes, you've worn them all day and now its time to take them off, are you going to throw them away in the trash or are you going to clean the lashes the proper way so you can reuse them???? YOU'RE GOING TO CLEAN THEM! Back away from the trash can.

The first thing you should do is take two cotton pads and apply makeup remover to the cotton pads. Now you're going to lay one cotton pad down, and place one of the false lashes on the cotton pad, after that you are going to take the other cotton pad and place it on top of the lash. So you should basically have one of the lashes in between two cotton pads that have makeup remover on them.

Let sit for just a little, now remove the cotton pad that is on the top but keep the other cotton pad on the bottom. Now you are going to grab a pipe cleaner. WIth the pipe cleaner, you are going to gently go over the eyelash hairs. You have makeup remover on the eyelash hairs, so you should be seeing any mascara or any other makeup come off the eyelash hairs that you applied.

Once you noticed that all makeup is removed from the eyelash hairs you are then going to grab some tweezers. You are going to use the tweezers to gently remove any eyelash glue from the lash line. This is important because this is what's going to help you be able to use the lashes again.

Once all lash glue is removed, I suggest taking an eyelash or eyebrow brush and just gently bush the eyelash hairs. Once all is done go ahead and pop the false lashes back into the container you bought them in.

Not only do you need to take care of false lashes but you also if you have eyelash extensions you need to take care of those. That means bushing the eyelashes daily and making sure you don't apply any additional oils to them.

I hope this really helps because at the end of the day we all want to save money! Also, I learned how to clean my false eyelashes from Huda Beauty's blog!


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