So before I get into this. I just want to say I was in a dark place when I wrote it. But, being able to vent through poetry has always helped me and reading other poetry similar to what I feel helped me to learn I'm not alone. I just want people to know that things do get better even when enduring feelings as shown below. You may feel alone. You may wish you never met someone so as to not feel attached. But let the feelings out. It will be alright.

I Wish I Never Met You

Sometimes I wish I never met you

I don't hate you

Yet I'm pretty sure that's the part killing me

Because maybe I wish I could

I wish I could find reasons

Maybe even just one reason

To spit you from my brain like a bad taste in my mouth

Or drown your aftertaste away with whatever the liquor store can offer

I lay in bed thinking about the words you speak each night

Why is it words of wisdom go in one ear and out the other

When your words have knotted themselves around not just my brain

But my heart

Why is it that whenever I tell myself not to get attached to you

I feel stitched and laced in

I try to peel you away from me

But it's as if my skin recognizes you and heals around like you need to be apart of me

I used to see your smile as Heaven's gate.

I learned now that it was a prison.

But by the time I figured it out you had already swallowed my interest.

I want so desperately to get it back but by the time I do it'll be…

You know…

Shit

I miss myself before I got lost in you

Cause at least then I didn't know what I was missing