I wish I was Peter Pan
I wish I could fly
So I could see you again
Maybe the second star to the right can take me to you
Maybe it’s there and I just can’t find it
But its just a wish
And this isn’t Disney World where
“Dreams come true”
This is reality
And the reality means I may not ever see you again
Yes I can watch some home videos
I can hear your laugh again
I can dream about you
Sometimes I even feel your presence
But I can’t give you a hug
At least in this lifetime
“It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again” - Wiz Khalifa
Grief is tough. It’s up and down and sideways. It’s a rollercoaster that never ends; Just like the Peter Pan ride we went on every year. “The carousal never stop turning” And life moves on. But it doesn’t move on with the one you lost. It moves on with you feeling alone. And scared. Anxious. Angry. Any and every emotion and you can feel.
I want you to know that you are not alone. Too many people experience grief, and you don’t even know it. That’s why I write this. To show you that you can express yourself. You can talk about it and it will make it better. Because when you talk about him or her you are keeping his or her spirit alive. And you are making connections with others that you will never make, if you did not express yourself.
I’m tired of hearing: don’t worry, “it gets better”. Because it doesn’t get better unless you make the effort to make it better. You accept the grief, and don’t always push it away. The more you push those thoughts away the more it comes back. Trust me, I’ve been there. I’ve learned this the hard way. “It doesn’t get easier, you just get better. ”
I’m tired of hearing “time heals all wounds”, because it doesn’t. Time just makes it less painful. It covers the cut up with a band aid but it sure does not take away the cut. You’ll always feel the loss, and sometimes you’ll feel fine for a few months but then you won’t. It’s okay, grief is a never ending process. But don’t lose hope, embrace hope because “it’s the only thing stronger than fear” (The Hunger Games).
To wrap it up, here is a quote from Grey’s Anatomy, spoken by Meredith Grey.
“It hurts to tear that bandage off. We don't want to see what's underneath. But maybe it's not the fear of the pain that holds us back. Maybe we're really afraid to see if the wound underneath is still open, or if it might actually be healing.”
