HLife can really suck sometimes. I often feel guilty for feeling like it sucks because I know that I’ve been lucky for things in my life. That doesn’t mean life doesn’t just suck anyway. I feel happy for the people around me getting all these amazing things, but I just feel like I’m not going anywhere.
I’ve never had a featured article, I’ve never made Dean’s list, and I’m not involved in anything on campus because I keep getting rejected to join or people ignore me at meetings. Maybe I’m just not good enough or maybe I just don’t try hard enough? Sometimes I wonder how I keep going despite all these failures I’ve encountered in my life.
Over a month ago, I hit a deer in my car and I could’ve easily been hurt but luckily I wasn’t. As I waited for the tow truck, I sat back and thought about my life. Why? Why do I feel this way? What is going on in my life that is making these things happen? I often found that a lot of these issues arose from my lack of belief in myself. I spend a lot of negative energy on myself.
I have often felt like a failure.
However, I have learned that these feelings are more than just a feeling of being a failure, but rather listening to those who have told me that I am a failure. If you have felt this way, it is time to stop listening to those have told you what you can't do because sometimes they are just jealous or hoping to push your buttons.
When I feel down, especially for a long time like this, I remember that so many people have felt this way before and still succeeded.
For example, JK Rowling.
JK Rowling was suicidal, experienced an abusive relationship, and was rejected multiple times by publishers for Harry Potter. You may have heard this story a million times, but you may also need to hear it again. Sometimes you have to go through failure in order to become who you are meant to be. You may be reading this to find the answers to why you feel this way, but I can't give you the answer. I can tell you to continue fighting. I feel the same way and understand where you are coming from.
It is a short and quick piece to understanding how to deal. Oftentimes, we forget that we are the answers to our own problems.
Because we are the answers. The solution is inside of you, inside someone else.Because we are the answers.
Chris Pratt literally used be homeless on a beach in Hawaii and is now back on the island working on Jurassic World 2. My point is that our own negativity is worse than anything we can imagine.
Always, always believe in yourself. Maybe you'll be the person who changes my life in the best way possible. You probably already have changed someone's life with your presence.
Here is a GIF I love because of Chris Pratt on Parks and Rec:
