Some days are more emotional than others, some days are more content than others, and some days are just plain miserable. We are challenged with so many breaking points and somehow still make it out alive.

I hate getting out of a routine. I hate getting distracted from my routine. I hate not having a routine. I hate doing things that could potentially redirect my mindset of "this should be done right". To me, the right way is my way and I'll always try to make it my way. If it isn't mine then I will kick and scream until it is (not really). But sometimes this is the way I act and I am completely aware of it.

And some days I simply fight with the fact that I know my way isn't the only way. God forbid my way is better than the next! I fight myself, I punish myself, I urge myself to do better. Even after I've done my best. Some days I'm just not enough for me.

It's okay to wake up not knowing where you stand within yourself, it's okay to not know where you stand with someone else, it's okay to have a bad day. Overall, it is okay to make mistakes. I wish someone told me this sooner. But even when we know, we still have the habit to treat ourselves so badly for our faults.

I do this thing where I always try to define myself by a series of different mindsets throughout the historical events of my life.

Break that misconception in half.

We are constantly evolving every single day. But the fact you could even try to define yourself with what you think you think about yourself is insanity. Living through your motions is a better alternative.

We have such strong opinions when it comes to the negative aspects of ourselves, sometimes more than the positive ones. Different situations bring out different threads between our good and bad. Don't let this intimidate you! And don't let it grab ahold of you and keep you hostage.

But when I focus on what I can do with the capabilities I'm given in that day, then I can do what I need to do and feel good doing it. A breath of fresh air to know that what I did yesterday was for yesterday, that today is for today, and that tomorrow is for tomorrow. Coming up with specific abilities that fit the day's criteria.

Let yourself breathe. Get sober and let yourself breathe. Get clarity on why you don't feel good enough for yourself or anyone else in your life. Take some time from the people or groups where you find confusion or seem to strain your way of thinking. Let those answers come to you with time.

If it isn't for the people that have comforted me in my times of failures, it would've taken me triple the amount of time to get up than it would've for me to do it all by myself.

But that's what I've always strived for. I want to be able to do anything at anytime for myself. I want to achieve everything I possibly can with nobody's help. But that's not right. It shouldn't be right as much as I wish it to be. I might hold the answer. But I am not the answer.

I've learned that to open yourself up, ask for help, or just let someone in on your own self terrors, can sometimes give you what you need or more knowledge on how to fix it.

I've realized that it is okay to ask for help because once you do, you will get even more understanding than you would from doing it on your own. You'll learn new details about yourself and what you're competent of.

You'll test your morals, your values, and your inner rules. But not having to break any of them. Instead, you get to subconsciously share what you're made of.

There's no President without the political office behind him to confirm his validation. Just as we need ourselves, we also need others.

Now I don't mean depending on others, I just mean connecting with others to help us grow and better us as a whole.

It's okay to say "I cannot do it on my own." You'll drive yourself up a wall for years if you think otherwise. Open your eyes to the tools in your life and use them to benefit your team.

Instead of your insecurities burning a hole in your heart, decide to use them for fuel to get better. Your breaking point is just another beginning to set yourself free.