I am a person that has very thin patience, but at the same time it takes a lot for me to lose it. What I learned about my hormones last night is that its nearly impossible to control them even though you haven't had a problem with them in the past. so let me tell you a story:
Last night at the train station around 10:20 pm, after already having a long and tough day, this about 30 year old man had the nerve to mosey on up to the counter to the lady who is currently helping me and starts complaining about the machines not working. I was non-existent for the 3 minutes he interrupted me getting my ticket, and also disrespecting the woman trying to help us both. I bit my tongue. After he left the lady, clearly flustered, continued to give me the quality help with the best attitude so I told her to have a great night. After the fact I saw that mans friend and proceeded to tell him that there's an app for the phone if nothing else works, he relays the message. then this man, the face of ignorance and ego, has the nerve to say "my phones dead, thanks smartass" to me... If my mom didn't teach me manners I would have ripped into this man like a damn wolf. I have already had a very trying day, my hormones are through the roof and in that moment I was legitimately biting my tongue because I needed to get home for classes and not spend the night in jail. Instead of saying anything I flashed him the dirtiest look while I had visions of his demise and went about the rest of my night. I fumed about this for hours, and hours and hours. Because he cannot plan properly he had to ruin everyone else's night, but hey misery needs company.
Moral of the story:
It was the first time I felt so out of control of my emotions where I had to really bite my tongue and not whip my heavy bags at his rude, privileged face. Throughout the day prior to this incident I cried...twice, I was starving, I was sleepy and knocked out on the train, I felt completely ugly then 10 minutes later I felt as cute as can be, and I was completely angry and kinda sorta gave my dad an attitude. I sat there and thought about how crazy it is that some women feel like this every single month. I'm so sorry.
When girls and women on their cycles would talk about their emotions being everywhere I couldn't relate until last night. I felt like some angry little man was controlling my emotions while I watched. I just never believed it. There really isn't a "cure" for our emotional rollercoaster, although chocolate comes very close. I give all of us females so much credit for existing with this curse and going about our daily lives. Guys sometimes we really can't deal with ourselves but it has nothing to do with you we just don't know whats going on inside of us. Yeah its going to get unbearable at times but please don't get angry with us, we're really trying and you could actually help keep us sane.
I hope everyone's time of the month is better than most, and that you get chocolate chip cookies.
