I can’t feel anymore like I used to about these things. It will always be a travesty and a deplorable act of hate, yet this time, with the most recorded deaths in a mass shooting in American history, I have kept my distance away. Turning away from the news, trying to avoid it in conversation.

This is too much. I thought when a mass shooting of this caliber came along I would be up in arms, obsessed, following the story from every possible angle. Instead, I am plagued by a numb feeling, refusing to attach myself to any feeling of bitterness or sadness.

This is defeat.

I’m tired of seeing innocent people die. I’m tired of seeing the greatest political minds we have more concerned with their immediate opponent than the problem at large. I’m tired of turning on the news to see another shooting has taken place. I’m tired of seeing that shooting inhabit every faucet of American news for three to five days. I’m tired of moving on after the story has been sapped of its relevance with no solution or lesson learned. I’m tired of seeing it happen again, in the same process, every damn time.

The immediate solution does not lie in calling them "radical Islamic terrorists." It’s a political ploy to make Hillary and Obama look weak and nothing more. Changing the name of someone does not make them any less of the person they really are. Nor does the solution lie in gun control. It is a step in the right direction, but it is no miracle cure nor will it ever be. There are too many guns in America as is. Banning assault rifles will increase gun sales and create a thriving black market for them.

This is a war that has no battlefield and no foreseeable end to it.

What is the solution to these mass shootings?

What is the solution to terrorism?

Maybe there is no solution. No legislation or law to be enacted that could stop this. No mindset that could alter the outcome. Maybe time is the only thing that could heal us.

The only solution I can offer is to eradicate terrorism from the world. I don’t mean by just dropping bombs, but by actively engaging in the communities where it is infected the most. The best way to prevent terrorism is to replace it with a better standard of living. This isn’t a solution as much as it is a wish.

This is not just a battle against terrorism, but home-grown lunacy. No matter how incredible the influence terrorists have, it will always take an angry lunatic to pull the trigger.

I don’t know what to say, other than I hope and I implore that something like this never happens again. But that is a false hope. It will happen again. Hopefully when it does, we can learn a lesson before we move on.