Baby A,
What’s goin’ on!?
Wow, it feels weird to ask that question. Up until the day we left for college, I had always known what was happening in your life, because my life was virtually the same. We brushed our teeth side-by-side every morning, approved each other’s outfits before stepping out the door for school, and fought over who would sit shot gun for so long that we’d have to run through the hallways together in order to get to class before the first bell rang.
We repeated that routine each day, until senior year of high school came and went in the blink of an eye. We decided to attend two different colleges. Going away to school would be the longest we’d spend apart since the 45 minutes you spent alone in the world before I was born, but I was so ready. I needed the chance to be known as just “me” instead of “one of the twins.” I felt like college would be my time to find who I was on my own, and I knew in my heart it would do the same for you.
We weren’t best friends before we left for school, and I don’t mean that in a bad way. We were close, but there was something missing in our relationship. We both have the scars and bruises to prove it, though you may have just a couple more than me. I apologize in advance for any more marks I may leave in the future, before I grow up and realize that it is in no way acceptable for me to still be biting you.
Growing up may take me a few more years, but I have made a few other realizations already. First of all, I realized the chance to miss you was the lost puzzle piece. They say distance makes the heart grow fonder, and no situation could better prove this theory. Instead of being overwhelmed by your annoying presence all the time, we are rarely in the same state, let alone the same room. This has made you much more tolerable… sorry, at least I admitted I need to grow up! But honestly and truly, I didn’t realize how irreplaceable you were to in my life until I didn’t have you as a resource anymore. At school, I have no one to bluntly alert me about the food in my teeth or to expertly do my makeup.
Second of all, I realized what an incredible role model you are. I couldn’t be prouder of the remarkable woman you are becoming. You are working harder than I have ever seen you work and your success is reflecting that so well. You are beaming on the outside and seem to have found your place in this world. You are loved by anyone who meets you and especially those lucky enough to be your closest friends. I look up to you and aspire to be more like you every day.
Most of all, I realized how much better we are together. I need you more than I could have ever expected. You are the Mary Kate to my Ashley, the Tia to my Tamara, and the Zak to my Wheezie. Oh, and by the way, if you EVER use this against me, I promise I will cut off all your hair while you are sleeping.
You are my day one, literally.
Love and miss ya,
Baby B
