I can’t believe I’m writing you this letter but well, here I am.

I remember being told that I was too young to be this sad but did they ever realize how I was also too young when I first heard the painful words you’ve said to me. I was too young to experience such pain you’ve caused me. I was so young when I started to realize how terrible this world can be and how you’ve begun to tear me apart.

Every single day, I questioned myself when would I ever be enough for this world or would I still be? Negativity lived inside me. I had self-esteem issues until I reached the point when I just wanted to be gone. Completely gone.

I remember being the kid who was always in the back of the line because I was too shy to actually have you think I was interested in something. I remember I was the kid who only dreamed of getting a medal or certificate because I’m never good at anything; sports, academics and even extracurricular stuff. I remember I was the kid who’s always trying to fit in, trying to please everyone else, maybe even you who’s reading this.

I once tried seeking for your attention as a validation that I was enough and it’s sad to think that I probably still do right now even if I won't admit it. I had sleepless nights, studying all my lessons but it was never enough for me to be like everyone else you look up into. I tried to be friends with everyone else but being the introvert I was, it was hard for me to socialize and it seems like everyone hates me because I was not the kid with an insanely genius mind or talent. I was not the kid with fancy expensive stuff. I was just a kid. I was just the kid trying make a space for herself in this world.

Now, I am not a kid. I'm not a kid who's afraid to try and be good at sports, academics and extracurricular stuff. I'm someone who realized that if I like doing something, it's okay to excel in it and to even brag about it sometimes.

You let me down and I must admit that some of it is my fault. You’ve won that time, but this time I’m the one who's winning.

To all the people who let me down, the battle isn’t ending yet. I’m stronger now.