Dear A,

I am writing this letter not in desperation, not to be angry, or even upset about you leaving. I am not writing this to beg you to come back. Nope, this is more of a thank you. I am not thanking you for breaking my heart, or even breaking me to the point of a suicide attempt. Right now, I am writing this to genuinely thank you for everything you have done for me throughout the relationship. You deserve this, I know you do. You dealt with more than enough for me, and I am beyond sorry for that. I want to thank you for loving me and dealing with me for as long as you did. I recognize I was not always the best, and I made you feel as though I was not happy with you. The truth is, I had never been so happy in my entire life, maybe I just did not always show it. You were always the one to make me smile so easily. That not longer matters now. I want to thank you for allowing me in your life this long, and being there for me the whole way through. I want to thank you for caring so much about me then you ever lead on. Thank you loving me at my best, and even at rock bottom. Thank you for always making me apart of your family, I truly began to love them, and what wonderful people they are. Thank you for always including me in your everyday activities. I want to thank you for being not only my girlfriend, but also my best friend, that was truly an honor. Thank you for spending a portion of your life with me. Thank you for helping me grow up and teaching me how to live a happy life. Thank you for making my life worth living while we were still together.

You taught me that sometimes live is about letting go. I had this vision of "who you used to be" and "who you could be". Just like seasons, people change. You slowly became this person I thought I loved, but you became someone I had to change. I learned you should never change who you are to become the person your significant other wants to date. I am who I am, and you are who you are, and someday, somebody somewhere out there will appreciate that. I learned the value of myself, and that I am way better than I ever though I was. It took me awhile, but now I am able to look myself in the mirror and be happy and free. I am no longer this chained down soul. I loved every moment we spent together, even through the rough patches of our relationship. You will never understand the way you made me feel so powerless, so defeated, so abandoned, so lost and confused, abused, and loved all in the same breath. Near the end of our relationship I began to change, I could not stand being away from you, from your touch, even when it was a cold and abusive touch. I will never begin to understand why you handled things the way you did, by always picking a useless fight, breaking me to the point of tears, and crying myself to sleep to just forget, but to this day I wish you never became this person. Being together, taught me so many things; I learned what it feels like to be loved, and likewise I learned what it felt like to know when love runs dry . I learned what it feels like to be filled with happiness, but I also learned what heart-wrenching pain feels like. I learned what a best friend was, and I learned how to be a best friend to another. I learned how to be better and how others look to for happiness. I know that our time together as a couple is no more. I have so many hard feelings towards you, but the minute I think about all of the good times we shared together those ill feelings begin to fade. While, it pains me to say we are not longer together, you made my life an adventure. "We lose ourselves in things we love. We also find ourselves there". So in the past few months, I learned who I truly am. I found myself, and discovered who I used to be. I learned that I have to fight through the bad days, in order to earn the good days, and now I know that they lie ahead. I hope that you continue to live your life to the fullest. I hope you continue to grow, and that your life continues to be filled with happiness. Although, we went our separate ways, I spent most of my memorable moments with you by my side. I pray you find the love of your life, and start a life with her how we always imagined ours would be. I hope you find what you find what you were looking for, I hope your heart is no longer hurting, and you get moving on with life. I hope you're happy now. I hope you finally find your happy ending.

Sincerely,

A girl who used to love you