To The Boy Who Used To Try Again,
We had some good times and some rough ones but they just didn’t even out enough to make us work. There were times I wished you would notice more than just my pretty face. I know there were times you wanted me to be more understanding and be the girl of your perfect dreams. I wasn’t able to be that perfect girl. You would only make me feel worthy when it was convenient for you. I felt like the only thing I was ever good for was sex or when you needed someone to complain about your exes to. I never felt like I was worth any of your time.
When you asked me if we could “start over” you knew I was in a relationship for almost 2 years. You knew I had my son on the way with the man I love dearly. Why? Why did you think I was going to just up and leave this man and come back to you? Did you think I would forget about all the times you left me feeling like I was nothing but a good booty call? We talk every once in a while but it always seems to turn into a sexual conversation after about 20 minutes. I don’t know what you expect from me. You asked me to still be friends but when I do just that you still push for more. I can’t change the fact of what we were way back when, but I can change who I was as a person.
I have grown up to love myself and not bring myself down to the low standards I allowed myself to be when I was with you. I am with a man who makes time for me and doesn’t just think that I’m a nice piece of woman meat. I have my son who is everything to me. I will always be there as a friend to talk to but nothing more. I will not allow myself to go back to the girl I was when we were together. I choose to be the woman I am today for myself and for my son. I am choosing to be a role model for him so he can choose the right direction instead of the wrong one like I did.
Sincerely,
The Girl Who Moved On