Dear Stranger,

We were the closest of friends. We told each other everything. You were the person who would make me smile even when I wanted to cry. As corny as this is that's how it was. That's how we were. We would argue over every little thing, but would make up soon after because we didn't wanna be without each other as friends. I have to admit that it hurts. It hurts knowing that we were so close and always there for each other and now, now it's not the same. Now I can't go to you when I wanna cry and could use a good laugh. I can't go to you when something good happens to me and I want you to be the first to know. So much has happened. So much that I haven't been able to tell you. So much that I'll probably never be able to tell you.

You hurt me. You built up my confidence and made me into who I am, but while doing that, you damaged me. You made me feel like I was always in the wrong and never could be a good friend. You made me feel like I wasn't good enough. But the reality is, I am a good friend, I always have been. You weren't, nor have you ever been one. You tell everyone else that they aren't good friends but you have to realize you're not Mr. Perfect either. You tell people you will always be there for them and then you aren't. You build people up and slowly tear them down. You can't be friends with people better than you. You are embarrassed of people if they're not at your level of skills. I admit I was in the wrong a few times, but mostly? Mostly it was you. You were the one who ruined what we had. You were the one that made us not talk for a few months. You were the one who never took responsibility or apologized for your actions. But even through this all, I still care about you. I'm still here for you. I'll always be here for you. I have always been there as your shoulder to cry on, and now? Now I don't even know if you're safe. If you're sad, or happy, or scared. And that's what hurts the most. Knowing that I can't be there for you anymore. Knowing that I am no longer an important person to you.

I truly hope you found someone else to watch the sun rise with. Someone else to talk about the trees with. Someone else that has terrible grammar when texting that you can correct. Someone else to buy you silly gifts. Someone else to be there for when their fish drowns. Someone else that you can open up to when you're feeling down, excited, scared or all of the above. But most of all, I hope you found someone else to always encourage and be there for you. I hope you have someone to make you happy.

I hope you know that I miss you. I hope you know that I would never want you to be upset or hurt. I hope you know all of this. I always want to make sure that you never feel worthless. I hope you never go through what I did. No one deserves to feel like this. It continues to make me feel numb. Numb knowing that I don't know if everything is going wonderful in your life. Numb knowing in the words of Taylor Swift, "We are never ever ever getting back together."