Dear ex-boyfriend,
The day you broke my heart was the day I thought I would never be the same. And to some extent, that statement is true. I am not the same person I once was when we were together. Instead, I am the person I have always wanted to be; a strong and independent woman. And without you shattering my heart into thousands of pieces, I would have never had the opportunity to pick up those pieces on my own and understand who I wanted to be. So this is for you.
First of all, I want to thank you for the memories we created. Some of those memories were the best moments of my life, and I would not have experienced them if it wasn’t for you. I am thankful that you introduced me to new music and can appreciate the new foods I wouldn’t have tried because of you.
Thank you for making me stay at my dream school.
Thank you for introducing me to my best friends. While I spent most of the weekend that you decided to leave me in bed, there was something that brought me to Room 663 and onto the floor of the two people who guided me through my heartbreak.
Thank you for teaching me how to go out and meet new people. I was able to get dressed up, go to my first college party and actually enjoy myself.
Thank you for picking me up at the airport when I wanted to surprise my parents. While I cried in the bathroom stall directly after seeing you for the first time in months, it was the first time I pulled myself together and told myself to be strong so you couldn’t see how much pain I was in.
Thank you for ignoring my texts and calls while I was home from school. Even though I wanted to see you and was crushed that I didn’t, these were the moments I realized my need for strength and independence.
Thank you for making me feel alone. The moments I laid in bed at night and thought about who I am were some of my weakness moments. But those moments made me learn more about myself and made me stronger.
Thank you for building a wall around me. I was not sure if I would ever be able to give my heart to someone else, or trust someone the way I trusted you.
Thank you for continuously hurting me for months after our break up. While it knocked me down, I got back up every time.
It has been a year since we have been together, and I can say I am the person I have always wanted to be. I took my time alone to work on loving who I am, because you have to love yourself before you can ever love anyone else. Once I began to love myself, I became more confident about who I am. I strengthened my values and set goals that would lead me in the direction towards my hopes and dreams.
Now that I am confident about who I am as a person, I am ready. I am ready for someone to come into my life who genuinely cares about me. I am ready to break down that wall and hand someone my heart with the confidence that they will hold it dearly. I am ready to not only be happy, but to feel whole.
So yes, I am not the same person I once was. I am strong. I am independent. I am in control of my life and heading in the direction of my biggest dreams. I am confident. I love who I am, and this is all thanks to you.
Sincerely,
Lindsy
