Dear reader,
Life can be very hard sometimes, as you probably already know. It seems like a lot of people around you are having just as hard of a time as you are, and maybe some have it even worse. Even though there are many people around you going through hard things, I understand you when you look around and see a difference between you and them.
You're alone. They're not.
They're going through a tough time, but they have a support system around them. They have a good family, good friends, good mentors, but you have nothing. Now, I'm not going to tell you "You're not really alone" or "Someone is/has gone/gone through what you're going through" because those sayings are probably meaningless to you right now.
I mean, so what if someone from the other side of the country, world, universe, whatever, that you have never met before is going through the same thing you are? How does that help you? I understand that feeling. I understand when words from an inspirational post on Facebook aren't helpful anymore. I understand the feeling when people tell you that "it will pass".
I understand what it's like to see everyone around you have what they need to get through life. I understand what it's like to to be numb to helpful advice. I understand what it's like to do nothing but scroll down Tumblr and Facebook all day but it doesn't really mean anything. It's just to pass the time. I understand what it's like to sleep all day, so time goes faster so you can somehow skip through this part of your life. I know what it's like to be up all night being angry, sad, and jealous of those who have what you lack. I understand what it's like to feel lonely at Christmas dinner. I understand what it's like to feel lonely at 3am while eating a bowl of Ramen. I understand.
But, I'm requesting you to be open-minded right now. Fight your numbness. Fight your sleeplessness. Fight your anger. Fight your sadness. Fight your jealousy. Fight your cynical mindset.
Because even though you are alone, it will pass. It will get better. Your loneliness will end. Your discontentment will end.
Romans 12:12 says
Be joyful in hope, patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.
Be joyful in the hope that you won't be alone someday. Be patient, because a place without patience is a place where the anger, sadness, depression, and anxiety reside. Be constant in prayer. Communication with God will help cure the loneliness.
Paul writes in 1 Timothy 6:7-8
...we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content.
So even though we don't have everything we need, maybe we have only what it takes to barely manage, we should still be content because at least we're managing. This is one of the hardest challenges to face in life, to lack but still be content. In my personal experience, it has only come from the supernatural comfort of God. I hope you are able to someday feel this contentment and eventually gain what you desperately need in your life.
With all love and hope for you,
GJC
