To the person I miss most,
Every second, every minute, every hour, of every single day, I miss you. Something I'm doing, a conversation I'm having, an image that crosses my mind, everything reminds me of you. Some days are easier than others to not have you around. Some days I just want to crawl into a ball and cry. Just one more phone call, one more hug, one more "see ya later" is all I really need.
I miss your voice. I miss your questions. I miss your laugh. I miss your contagious smile. I miss your hugs and just being close to you. I miss your warmth. I miss having someone to make everything okay no matter where I was at and what was going on. I miss your jokes. I miss your endless stories about any situation. I miss your never ending life advice. I miss having you as my shoulder to lean on. I miss your massive, caring, loving heart. I miss you.
At first, things were OK. It hadn't really hit that you were gone. It hadn't really hit I wouldn't be able to drive to your house just to talk and walk around. It hadn't hit that Sunday dinners would have one less place setting. It hadn't hit that my baby cousins would never know your face. It hadn't really hit that pictures and memories were all that I had left. It hadn't hit that the last goodbye was really the last one. It hadn't hit that you were really gone.
And then it did, and when it came, it hit me like a rock. A piece of my life, my heart, my soul, a piece of me was buried in the ground the day you left this earth. My best friend, my person, my favorite person in the whole world gone, just like that. Never coming back.
If I had one wish to do anything, it would be to be able to make that trip to heaven to see you just one more time. I'd bring our family and everyone who loved you, just to see you smile, just to hear your laugh, just to know that we would all see you again someday and that then everything would be okay for just a little while longer.
I miss you more and more every day and I love you with all my heart. My biggest goal is to make you proud. You're still my biggest inspiration and I know you're still my biggest supporter. I will never be able to repay you for all the things you did to make everyday just a little bit easier. I hope everything is going well and just know that everyone down here misses and loves you more every single day that you are gone.
Love,
The girl that misses you more than anything
