First off, Hi. I hope the family is well, and you're doing okay. I feel like you had to have known this letter was coming your way. It’s not like we had the best parting of ways, and giving of things back. Yes, maybe I did tell you to never speak to me ever again, but time has passed. A lot has changed, but a lot has stayed the same.
Oh yes, I am doing alright too, so is the family. I am sure you were going to ask, right? I am still a workaholic, but I'm still just as fun-loving and silly as the girl you talked to till two a.m. the first night we met. I guess you could say some things never change, but honestly some things have. I am less trusting with my heart because of you. I let my guard down less easier thanks to you. You have taught me to be jaded when it comes to potential love. Yes, believe me even the sound of your name or the thought of passing your truck while driving is enough to make me cringe. I am okay. I still may not be able to listen to that song, you know the one, we sang like fools to in my car, while taking the back way home, just so we could spend a few more minutes together. I had high hopes for you and me. I still remember vividly giving you high fives because I was too nervous to kiss you, or how you hugged your Mom in the doorway the first time I met her, or how you played it cool when I met your friends, until you got drunk and held my hand on the way home that night. I let myself relive, if only for a moment or two, how things use to be. Remember the good times, the happy moments, the moments of just pure fun and carelessness? They were good weren't they?
Anyway, that's not what this letter is for. It's also not to thank you for anything that happened during or after “us.” I am not going to thank you for any of it. I won't give you the credit you don't deserve. I changed because I needed to. I changed because after you, I did not like the way I looked at love. I did that, not you. So no, I refuse to give you that credit. I did that for myself. I was strong enough to become better after you. This letter is to tell you that I am okay, or that I am going to be. I haven't gotten that far yet. To have gotten past everything and come out on the other side is nice. It's a very freeing feeling these days, to know I did that for myself. I see the sun on the horizon, and I like the way the warmth feels. I have learned a lot from thinking that you ruined me. But mostly I learned to find myself. You've brought out the good, the bad and the ugly in me, but since then I have brought out the best in myself. So yes, I am doing okay. You did not ruin me. I fixed myself.
