Dear boy who repeatedly hurt me,
The day we met was an amazing day, and one that I still remember. It's just one of those memories that I can't erase. That exact day, I had no idea who you were, I didn't know a name or anything. I just knew a face. One day you showed up on my suggested friends on Facebook, so I thought, "Why not give it a go?" I sent you a friend request, which you quickly accepted. We started messaging each other a lot and than one day, you asked if I wanted to hang out. I said yes. The first night we hung out was amazing and unforgettable. I didn't expect you to kiss me, but you did. That was when it all began.
We lost our minds, or at least I did. The first time you said we were done, I was hurt. I blamed myself and only myself. The second time, it hurt even more. The third time, it hurt less. I noticed each time it hurt less, and I don't know if it was because I expected it or if it was because I was losing feelings for you.
I have one and only one thing to say to you: Thank you. You were a blessing and a lesson in one big package. Yes, I cried, yes, it hurt like hell, yes, I lost hope over and over again. But the thing is, I'm a stronger girl because of the pain you caused me. I have a different outlook on life. I now have the chance to find the one. I wouldn't have that chance if I'd stuck around with you. Now, you've got a girl, someone new, and I can't pretend to be cool. I'm sorry, but I can't be your friend. It hurts to think of you with another girl. I get a pain in my stomach, and everything becomes numb.
I know that I was the only one who cried over this. You told me over and over again that you knew exactly how I felt. You were lying. You had no idea how I felt. You don't know how it felt to be left, and just hours later, get a text saying, "Hey, wanna hang out?" Or having to deal with seeing me. Or having to pretend you were fine and smile. So many emotions flooded through my body, and none of those emotions you felt. There's so many things that remind me of you and it hurts. It hurts to listen to that song that we both loved, it hurts to watch your favorite movie, and it hurts looking to the right of me and seeing an empty place where you used to be.
The hurt, the pain, the sadness, and confusion were all a roller coaster in my life. That roller coaster has come to a stop, and I've gotten off of it and I've walked away from it a stronger person, a different person. You told me that my heart was safe with you. I'm sad to say this. You lied, but I'm relieved to say that I've moved on and this is our last goodbye.
