At one point, your life seems as if everything is perfect but in the blink of an eye it turns upside down and you are left wondering how perfect can change to tragic in an instant. We did everything together, our lives revolved around one another's every movement. Our life decisions were based on what the other would think or if the other would be around to help celebrate the outcome. Everyone that knew us only knew us by one name and that was best friends. Our relationship was idolized by others hoping that one day they could replicate the bond that we worked hard to have. Even though it took years for our bond to be created it only took seconds for it to break apart.
I would have done anything for you, I would have moved mountains to make sure you were okay or defend you to anyone who tarnished your name. I thought about what the future would be like when we had children and them growing up to be just as close as we were. You were my maid of honor at my wedding, the godmother to my children, and my partner-in-crime in the nursing home when we got old. I prepared every boyfriend and future boyfriend about the dynamic of our relationship because they needed to know that they came second when it came to you. I bragged about how wonderful of a friend you were to people that tried to say their best friend was better than mine. People didn't understand us but it didn't matter if they didn't understand our relationship.
Eight years later our relationship started to crumble and I felt that I was the only one trying to keep it afloat. We depended on each other for so much and you were starting to need me less and less. I saw you placing our relationship on the back burner while everything and everyone else in your life was more important. Even though our paths in life were heading in different directions I always thought that no matter where those paths took us we were always going to be best friends. In the end, I did everything that I could possibly think of to make you see that I didn't want to lose you in my life. The harder I worked the more distant you became.
You changed my life. Before we were best friends I was nothing more than an insecure girl trying to find my place in the world. You reassured me that I was amazing and that anyone would be lucky to have me in their life. Those words bring me chills to this day because you broke my heart. You were never supposed to be the one to leave; you were supposed to always be there giving me advice and helping me along. But in the words of Peyton Sawyer "people always leave" and even the people you feel are suppose to stay forever are the ones that exit unexpectedly.
